once upon a song..

here we go again :)

2012-01-21T00:24:00.006+07:00

oh hello! seems like i haven't written anything on this blog for.. almost 1 year (the last post was on 26th of january 2011 and now it is 21st of january 2012.

well many things has happened in the past one year. my life is great, really great.
academic thing is still going fine, my band and my music career is superb, my band has just launched its first album, i'm still doing my wedding singer chores plus now recording for some project plus collaborating with my fellow musician. now i'm teaching violin plus owning an online cake shop, which gives me a considerable amount of cash :p

but when it comes to love. well i just can say that i'm still unfortunate.

lucky me, my past lover the 'He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named' is totally gone right now.

it took me 3 years and 5 months, 6 stupid it's complicated status, 1 sincere yet heart wrenching telenovela-like relationship (that i suppose until now is my TRUE love), and 1 salvation + a bit foolish but sweet relationship (i suppose until now is my second candidate of true love and my first candidate of the MOST SINCERE relationship)
well it took that much effort to get rid of him, i think he put a spell on me :p

well, but now i want to tell you about my a bit foolish but sweet relationship, the second candidate of true love and the first candidate of the most sincere relationship.

well, it just has ended (approximately 3 hours ago)
It was really short (in my parameter), 2 months and 14 days. at first it was like a fairy tale but well, in the end it was not a fairy tale, but it taught me a loads of thing :)
i learn about compromise, commitment, understanding, patience and incredibly loads of thing in such a short time.

me and my ex were totally different in everything. i want a cinderella-like relationship, and he's (later on found out to be) as cold as an iceberg. i am an attention seeker + attention giver while he loves to spend his time alone, well a bit self centered sometimes. we have opposite personality, the old-fashioned cancer against the liberty loving aquarius. but we share (i believe up to now) one simple yet sweet sincere love.

he was the cute looking teddy bear guy, my band's friend introduced to me at Gedung Indonesia Menggugat Event. a good photographer and videographer with charming tone color, he really got the talent. a cute guy with a red shirt that shyly ask to take my picture at Kick Fest 2011. a cute guy that pretended to know about Hepatitis Viruses, PCR plus claiming that he love life science when he approach me.

the first month was easy and loving. but then.. it was not as easy as i thought. he began to give me less and less and less attention. being very ignorant and childish and stubborn. I first react as stubborn and bloody-minded as his attitude, i went mad, angry, and super emotional towards him. i scolded him and forbid him to do things that i dislike. i disturbed him by keep bbm/ym/texting him when he work or hang out until midnight with his friend.

but i really wanted the things to work well, to last. i changed my attitude totally. i became more understanding and more cautious. i seek for attention less, i tried to be more independent, stop being a crybaby and i let him to do anything he want. we had a quite difficult time but still loving.

and i went to a trip to Europe and things became irregular. i could see how he has lost the passion of loving me and missing me. i tried harder to salvage the sinking ship but he does nothing. and the entire last week, i was being emotional again, well, i was really desperate. but then finally we talked and it end.

a time apart is what we need right now.
Love is still there but the passion is currently missing.
i really appreciate him to be open and also to accept the fact that he did fatal mistakes to this relationship. i don't think many boy would do that due to their 'pride'
now, i don't have to have too much tiring thoughts about his everyday's ignorance like : 'kenapa ga bbm ya?' 'kenapa ya kok ngetweet tapi bbm aku ga dibalas?' 'kemana dia, kok aku ga dikabarin?' 'oh God, masih sayang ga ya ini orang sama aku kok lepas tangan sekali?'
and he's good to finally release me from that fatiguing thoughts by letting me free.

now i'm trying to understand that right now he need a time alone to develop himself to be a better man. at least, he has to be able to stand on his own feet before trying to be a man for his loved woman right?
i am a bit relieved that one big burden has been lifted up from my shoulder.

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one thing i believe, that our love was sincere.
aparts from all of the differences, we've survived and we spent some happy time. and i learn about commitment from him. there were times when i am really tired of him, but then i know the relationship and the love for him is more important. so i changed my attitude and try to salvage it.
you can't expect those romantic love will last forever right? i guess, the time when i try to understand and fight more instead of being childish and ignorant is the time when i learn a sincere love, a more mature form of love :)

and i believe that always loving someone else sincere will bring you eventually to a sincere love in the end :) i don't know who will be there in the end, it might be him, it might be other guy. it's up to You, dear Allah :)
but you're always around i know. loving and giving affection not in a romantic way.

Dear Andi Syarif, for now, we may not walk together holding hands.
but we're walking together side by side.
if God permits maybe someday in the future you will again gently take my hand & never let it go!
and i'm asking you to sing this lyric out loud, i guess this part is our favorite!

'Berjalanlah bersamaku, berjalanlah bersamaku!'

with love

Afifa Ayu Koesoema, Marmut <3

lunch box!

2011-01-26T20:32:00.005+07:00

nowadays i'm bringing my own bento style lunch box to campus! yeay! :)

well, few people bring lunch box to school and some thinks that it's boring and a bit old fashioned.
but what if we design the lunch box like this? (well it's cute, it will make you full, and also it will make you spend less money, isn't it?)

simple and colorful :)sausage, spicy burger, lettuce salad, rice, and also potato croquette.

sausage, spicy hamburger, cheese omelette and also rice. and also a bunny in a lunchbox! (this bunny is a jelly bought by my mom at singapore, it taste good but i felt bad to eat the whole bunny :'( )

bite size steak diane and crispy chicken, tomato and lettuce salad, friend rice and choco strawberry pudding for the desert! enjoy!

well, also my advice as a fouth semester microbiology student - food scientist wanna be. bring your own special lunch box to school/campus! :) the food quality, and nutrition will be better. and i garantee that it contains less COLIFORM than the food you would expect to find in some canteen on ITB. LOL :)

have a very wonderful night all,

with loads of love,

Afifa Ayu♥

newly decorated room !

2011-01-19T17:24:00.012+07:00

oh hello all! finally this night i can write about my newly decorated room (after a long week of cleaning it up, piling up things, and buying new furniture for my room) my room is 80% newly decorated! and i love it!

let's see now i have :

1. necklace hanger + hair accessories hanger
found this at daisho Paris Van Java for 22000 IDR.
it's a multipurpose hanger exactly, but i use it for necklaces. you see i have tons of necklace. from hama beads, girly necklaces, pearl necklaces, and many more. putting it in an unorganized way will hinder you to wear the necklace. instead you'll be lazy to pick a necklace that suits your outfit. you can see that the hanger can divide your necklace to 10 categories and i do think this will help me so much to mix and match my clothes and necklace :)

and this one is for my pretty hair accessories, my favorite!

2. shoe rack

found this at carrefour Paris van Java with a low price (94000 IDR)
it's a multipurpose rack actually and it's a bit too good for shoes, but i like it so much. i put some of my shoes here, i mean i'm really a shoe maniac! from my pink oshkosh boots, zara kids boots, aixaggio flats, colehan flats, until salvatore ferragamo heels.
there are still more shoes but the rack is already full. LOL

3. toolbox
found this at carrefour Paris van Java for about 60000 IDR.

my dearest band, Angsa dan Serigala has a huge strong toolbox that (literally) able to load anything. it inspires me to adopt this adorable pink toolbox for my musical equipment from carrefour! :) from wireless, pre amps, pick ups, cables, small percussion instruments, until small thing like spare violin string and violin polish. i love my toolbox.

4. bag rack

my bags (again i am not only a shoe-holic but also a bag-holic) used to share place with my colorful stockings. but now my bags have their own space! from oroton and aigner hand bags, zara purse, until my calvin klein backpack. i love my bags so much, i'm just addicted to it!

5. stocking rack

found this for only 200000 IDR at Giant Pasteur.
uber cute rack! <3 i can put my stockings here, color coded. from formal black to shocking pink, crazy stripes, or skull pattern! also leggings, shorts, leg warmers, and my fancy long socks! stocking is so me! i don't care if someone said that it's a bit too formal or old fashioned to wear stockings. they just can't find a good colored, fancy and trendy stockings to be worn! :p

6. my closet
ok, i need a bigger one. if i have my own house later on first thing that i will do is to make a clothes room. where you can get all of your clothes hung (just like in a store) so that no clothes will left unseen and unworn :p anyway, i've done mass cleaning up (my routine per 6 months). piling and sorting things and donating MANY THINGS (just so i can buy new clothes :p)

T Shirts, formal blazer and blouse at first level.

Pajamas, skirts, plain t shirts and tank tops at second level.

Dress, color coded at third level.

Dress, color coded and also sweater and a bit of pants at fourth level.

Another pile of sweater and campus attire at fifth level.

My good blazers, gown, costume, and formal dress are being hung.

i need more closet, God :p

7. my tall cupboard
thanks mom for giving it to me! :)
first level is dedicated to my huge thick and difficult university books! from first year purcell, cutnell, and brady. my second year solomon, harvey until my favorite microbiology related text books : cappuccino (laboratory manual, black, and brock!)
second level to put (literally) anything inside.
third level to put some of my reading books.

fourth level to put my first light microscope and some of my poly pockets collection plus food shaped eraser (which is never been used to erase anything due to it's extra cuteness)
fifth level for my music book , score, etc.

8. my study

i rarely study (here). i study at a huge table outside my room in the middle of the house. to keep a good interaction with all of my family members. i haven't been tidying it much. i put some of my book, my stationary and diaries collection here. i also put photos and my poly pocket collection on top of my study!

9. a multi purpose basket
to put my everything LOL. from third semester journals to pile of disposable contact lenses! LOL.

10. my bed
the most comfortable bed ever! i love this more than heavenly bed from westin or sweet sleeper from sheraton. because my bed has my dolls (from little elmo, big elmo, series of fatty pigs and cows, until my lovely ifa bear), a warm bed cover and also a bed net (do say that i'm childish). currently i'm writing this on my bed :)

11. my end cupboard

people usually have end table but i have end cupboard instead :p it contains my favorite novels, mostly in english and chicklit-ish, like meg cabot. some of my books are also old and classic like i capture the castle or baby sitter's club. few are a bit smarter like abook about song writing and the famous tipping point or nice girls don't get the corner office.

12. my achievements board plus work station
this is where i put all of the ID from a gigs that i have ever played, brochure from a concert that i have ever participated, and also orchestra concert! and here i put my pink mini lenovo and also my cute eggy speaker, to keep my room musical! :>

and and, i guess i've described all the things in my room. LOL.

see you later in the next post, guys!

With Love, Afifa Ayu <3

songs available for download.

2011-01-09T11:07:00.002+07:00

okay, hello again all! <3

trying to be more productive this whole morning i'm working with my sibellius creating new song for Indonesian Youth Ideas! i hope that all the things will be good! :)
and nothing will troubled me, from the making, arrangement, practice until the recording. Amin!

btw, let me share you the link of my songs :

Bumi
this song won 3rd place at national competition of Muda Musikustix from Kompas Muda :D

Rindu
this song has it own video clip hahaha :p people said that this song is suitable for.. sinetron soundtrack HAHA. special thanks to the video clip model LOL.

Indonesiaku
this song was also for a competition, unluckily it didn't win. this song has a bit of pentatonic and gamelam bali touch, you might wanna listen to it :)

Anak Negri
this is my first song with band arrangement. you can get the spirit of nationalism!

Satu Atap
this is the soundtrack of a comic created by my sister, Satu Atap (you can get it in nearest gramedia) this song is a bit fairy tale-ish :)

Gapai Cemerlang Gemintang
this song is one of the lagu angkatan of School of Life Sciences and Technology ITB class of 2009! :)

and that's it (for now)

please kindly download it, friends :)

with loads of love♥

Afifa Ayu

2011♥

2011-01-08T17:49:00.002+07:00

oh hey hello!
happy new year all~

actually i'm not good in writing new year's resolutions but it's kinda fun to write it, in my usual simple way. half for fun half for real :p
i mean, how can you garantee that person having a 'cool-super ambitious' new year's resolution will be able to fulfill it all?

okay, here's my so called resolution!

ACADEMIC
- having a good understanding of my major to be a great microbiologist (medical and food) :)
- having a good GPA (> 3,5, entering deanlist, yum yum!)
- somehow getting a scholarship for summer school somewhere this summer (let's try to find it! Rijksuniversiteit Nederland, i want to go there so much!)
- read more scientific journals about microbiology! (cmon cmon!)
- being able to start some kind of simple research on microbiology and start to create paper + submitting it somewhere (but i don't know how, help me :p)

MUSIC FOR SELF
- practice violin, singing, piano, and everything harder.
- learn music theory and music history more.
- learn improvisation wholeheartedly
- creating a music blog of my own, You Tube Channel + myspace.
- having a strict violin practice, no tolerance.
- following ABRSM theory exam grade 5 + practical exam, grade 6 or 7?
- learn to play flute or baby alto <3
- create more songs, be more creative, develop my own style :) and don't forget to record it and follow competitions!
- start teaching violin! :)

ANGSA DAN SERIGALA
- commit more commit more! and arrange more things, not only for the string section :)
- record the violin and string section part in our debut album excellently!
- hopefully this will be our year! bunch of performances, successful album, tours outside bandung, and maybe abroad? AMIIIN AMIIN AMIIN.

KLABKLASSIK STRING TRIO
- working more in various kind of events, and get more money hahahaa :D
- make a real portfolio and distributing it :)
- learn many kind of songs, enrichment in song banks and no more 'saying no to requests' at weddings XD

OTHER MUSIC PROJECTS
- being both open minded and also selective in filtering jobs, remember that i can't do it all but i still need loads of experiences :)

COOKING
- learn to cook more more recipe other than western and japanese :)
- being a pastry princess like Whitney Miller (haha, dreaming!) :D
- making my pastry business (cupcakes, cakes and all) serious and having my own little brand plus online store.
- making a proper cooking blog.

LOVE
- come what may, and that's all <3

SELF DEVELOPMENT
- try to be more grateful and get rid of my sh*tty inferiority syndrome! :)
- love myself more :3
- tweet less about unimportant things, bismillah! :p

whoa, this list is going so long, but well i love to write. And hopefully many of this so called resolutions will be fulfilled this year, amin :)

Loads of love,

Afifa Ayu

chasing pavements.

2010-11-21T15:34:00.003+07:00

should i give up or should i just keep chasing pavements, even if it leads to nowhere?

yesterday when the CD player at the car 'sensitively' played this song, all that we can do is sing along.

frustrating, please don't torture me.

helloo!

2010-11-18T07:02:00.004+07:00

wow, i haven't written anything in this blog for a long time, long long time.

well, hello! how are you all?

so, where have i been?
currently i'm playing double role as a real microbiology student and a part time musician while leaving my comfort zone away and finding a new comfort zone.

the picture was taken by my fellow microbiologist, robby ganesha, thank you robby!

i'm loving my role as a real microbiology student although it's driving me crazy and consume almost my entire brain to study biophysics, organic chemistry and analytical chemistry. and consume my time to be at the laboratory for hours and doing gazillions tasks (journal, experiment report, etc.) every weekend. plus i'm taking extra subject(my ambition to follow fast track program). but i'm loving it so much. i really think that this microbiology really suits me :) and just pray for me that i can be a good food/medical microbiologist! :)

pictures are taken from here, thank you agung! :)

i really love my role as a part time musician too. although it really took almost my whole spare time. i mean, if i'm not in the laboratory or campus then you have 90% chance to catch me at some random studio, practicing; at music school, studying music; at random gig, performing; or at random wedding or acoustic performance, working. it's tiring, although it doesn't consume brain as much as my study but i consume my energy a loads to perform well. not forget to mention about : late night performances which leave me sleepy at morning classes, performances outside town that will take my entire day and force me to bring my task thus doing it while waiting or even on road,
but i'm happy with this, with my angsa dan serigala, voice of june, klabklassik string trio, and some band that use me as an additional.

because as i have mentioned before, i'm leaving my comfort zone, really really leaving it to open my heart for a new comfort zone. and it doesn't feel nice and warm and secure. it's harsh, it's not safe, and it's still a probability to have a new comfort zone. meaning right now, i'm TRULY INDEPENDENT and as a person being independent really tortures me. and i'm using my double role to push away my thoughts from loneliness, inferiority syndromes, and stuffs.
:p

i have to be tough and magical, cause that's the way 'he' always see me :)

and who knows what will happen in the future? (quoting someone)

i'll talk to you later, now i have to catch up for my group presentation's experiment at 10 am. just wish me luck! and wish me luck for this weekend! (God please just give the best for me)

with loads of love
afifa ayu ♥

hello all :D

2010-08-16T21:15:00.014+07:00

Wow, i haven't updated my blog for such a loong time :) i'm trying to be more productive right now :) a loads of writing will enhance your english.
(lately i'm feeling like my english is rather dull)

and well how are you? i'm feeling quite fine nowadays! :D let me give you updates!

-STUDY-
finally i'm a real university student right now! majoring Microbiology :) i'm quite happy with this major, i like microbiology so much. Microbes is so unique, although they are very very small their role is so big in our everyday life. And every life process is connected with microbes. I really think that this major is suitable for me, besides it pursue my interest. It is also a branch of knowledge that's emerging and evolving very fast right now!
and well, since my GPA (and everyone's GPA in Microbiology) fulfills the requirements for fast-track program, i'm quite sure that i will apply for this fasttrack program. 5 years to take our bachelor and master degree. i hope that i can cope with everything, but i guess it will be allright. You just need extra hard work! besides, getting bachelor+master in a short time will let me take another master degree on music, somewhere else abroad, maybe?
well just pray for me!

-ANGSA dan SERIGALA-
awawa congratulations for my lovely band, angsa dan serigala!

we play at TVRI! what a wonderful picture :)

and our song 'Bersamaku' won Indonesian Cutting Edge Music Award as one of the Best Newcomer (there were 8 other bands who win this category)

kak aji and kak mega holding the trophy

It was quite surprising, i mean, on the last week of the voting our position was not that good and stuffs (but in fact, it wasn't depend only on the voting, they have juries and stuffs to choose the winners)
We are all very grateful for this, something that we.. really didn't expect to happen. Thanks God :)
After that we had one page full review of us in Media Indonesia.

hmhm, on Media Indonesia :)

one of our performance on ABSTRAK V was being reviewed on Belia PR :)

and we've just had an interview plus photo session with Pikiran Rakyat. again, thanks dear God :)

what are we trying to do now is like regenerating the band.
creating new arrangement of songs, new concepts, new compositions, and even choreography! we're also still working on our recording for our EP and
it's a long way for us to have an EP for our own, the biggest thing that hinders us is the budget. but we will strive for it! having an EP is like having an identity for a band. it doesn't mean that if you already have EP or album, it will guaranteed your band's successfulness. But at least, having EP or album is like having a very good tools to spread your music to the media, to the people all around Indonesia. People can access it easily from everywhere, our music can be publicated more easily with the presence of EP or album.
having EP or album also means video clip, which means more and more publication :)
well just pray for us! not forget to mention, with new goals to be achieved i'm trying to contribute more and more to this band :) they are just like second family for me! :)
and full loyalty will surely lead to a better band!

-VOICE of JUNE-
i'm getting along quite well. now i can blend with them, not only from the things that they talk about, but also to their daily outfits and life style.

quite girlband-ish right? (the picture was taken on a radio interview)

and cheers :D

see? you cannot see that i'm still a member of a serious folk rock band right?

btw, the picture was taken on 'Top 15 Live Audition of L.A. Lights Indiefest' :) we played our song 'Bertepuk Sebelah Tangan' :) our performance was quite great. but unluckily we didn't pass to the next stage, but i think that's quite great to be Top 15 from Bandung.
this achievement lead us to new projects to establish ourself, and again please just pray for us :)

-VIOLIN-
improvement needed.
i'm trying to focus on myself, to develop myself. let's not think about other shining stars out there.
right now i'm learning musical modes, twelve keys, pentatonic, diminished keys, major keys, minor keys, augmented keys-well, PROPER IMPROVISATION. and also music theory, and etudes and all those quite sickening stuffs.
pray for me.
others can be flashy, but i have my own style of playing violin. i just need to develop it :)

-ORCHESTRA-
lately i've been playing orchestra again, with ITB Student Orchestra. i'm very happy :) hope they will let me play with them more.

one project was playing at the artepolis.

one project was playing for ITB International Choir Competition's Opening. i accidentally sat on a golden chair :)

OTHER MUSIC PROJECT
during the holiday, i help my friends band, one as a violinist one as a... cellist..

helping baby eat crackers :)

and helping pink pony club :)

-KLABKLASSIK-
after a quite long absence, i'm back in business. things were really hectic back there but now let's contribute fully to my wonderful klabklassik. trying to write articles for the blog, trying to help for the Classical Guitar Fiesta 2010 publication, trying to do some composition for the Klab, and trying to finish the Klabklassik's Academy final task.

-CULINARY-
well i love cooking, and i've just had my first experience for selling my own food. it was cupcake, macaroni schotel and lemonade (on my bigger sister comic launching Satu Atap)

tid bid :)

i really want to be able to cook many recipes! from cake, dessert, indonesian food, japanese food, western food, etc.
and i really like if my own cooking is being liked my many other person. i really feel the enjoyment. i want to open a business in culinary (people always need foods, anyway) and i also want to be a cupcake artist!

-OWN SELF DEVELOPMENT related to CAMPUS LIFE and ANOTHER MAINSTREAM THINGY-
harmony? i guess that's what i really want to achieve right now. as you have known, i am still a bit anti social, but i really want to change, change a bit. i don't want to be a super sociable girl, that spend most of her time in organization etc.etc. i really can't (because i have loads of other responsibilities out there)
and if i'm changing to be a super sociable girl then i will change myself. i still want to be myself.

and back to harmony, i cannot be extremely anti social. right now i'm trying to participate a bit there, not much, but still having some existence. my major is still music and organizations out there, this kind of inner campus organization will be like a 'minor' for me. but let's just try to participate, following meetings, filling out open reqruiment form, and finishing the matriculation program for PPN. i'm not aiming for a big goal (like being kadiv or something else, something special, something great and reflecting great ability of leadership blah blah).

besides, everyone have different kind of contribution to 'that' organization, depending to our own ability. i can play music, so i don't bother to play in any of their events or do something related to it.

and i guess you all can see that i'm trying hard to contribute and participate. i'm just not a very sociable person, but i try to follow it although it's sometimes killing me.
how wonderful it will be if i can still help without reducing the values inside myself, and we'll be living in harmony, appreciating each other.

i'm also planning to take an italian language course, i really want to find some short course or summer school about music in italy. and it will help a lot if you can speak and understand italian a bit :p

and i'm trying to write more, to practice my english and critical thinking.

and nooo more inferiority syndrome, let's love myself!

and this post is getting a bit too long, i guess i should stop.
talk to you later :)

with love, afifa ayu♥

what road to choose :)

2010-06-05T20:29:00.003+07:00

hey hello all!
okay loads of things have happened recently from a big changes until a small changes.

first of all #ACADEMIC THINGY
ok finally i have my GPA with me. it's satisfying and i really hope that i can enter microbiology with this GPA. and also fulfill my dream of being in SITH's dean list. amen. however, my destiny (whether i'll be a microbiology or a biology student) will be announced at 17th of june. please pray for me that i'll get microbiology as my major :)

second of all #PPN THINGY
well at least the first stage has finished~

third of all #LOVE THINGY
ok right now i'm focusing my love to a boy :p this decision includes really leaving my ex haha (i should have done that really long long time ago)
this boy to me is really superb. for the time being, i will let the things flow while showing that i DO care to you, boy :)

fourth of all #THE IMPACT OF LOVE THINGY
well, i feel really great and really sad at the same time. i am glad because finally i can release myself, learn to be independent. besides i can be closer to my family and best friends. i really agree that my ex has successfully made himself as the center of my world, sometimes it is just making me rather blind and insensitive to other people.
but in the other way, sometimes i just feel empty and lonely.
and since my new dream boy is only a crush, what can i expect? a 24 hours care? nah-ah, i cannot demand for that.

but i'm sure i can manage the things. i have to manage the things. this is the real moment for me to MOVE FORWARD, to be stronger and more independent!

fifth of all #MUSIC THINGY
it's still very fun and enjoyable as usual. i don't say that i am not serious. i am serious. but this music things appear in my life because it can decrease my stress for everyday's life :)
my short time goal is to be able to use music mode for improvisation (i'll explain why later in the following post) and to teach violin :)

but for overall my mood is quite good! and positive!
holiday has came. and i really wanna have fun! playing music, performing, cooking, planning my study, and having some great holiday!

happy holiday all! :)

new hobby ^^

2010-05-25T07:53:00.004+07:00

hello all :)
finally right now i'm having half holiday. no more classes and exams but i still have to follow Program Perkenalan Nymphaea + doing my usual routine with klabklassik string trio, angsa dan serigala, and stuffs.
so let's just call it "HALF HOLIDAY"

ok, right now i have a new hobby. it is productive.
but actually it is not really new, this is my holiday hobby.. COOKING :)

let's take a look into few pictures of my cooking lately (beside my cake last week)

cream of chicken soup :3

buttered steak with fried rice :3

italian steak with egg frittata and rucola salad

well, i just hope that with all of my cooking practice i will be a good wife and mom later on :) amen!

gotta go now, i'm having a performance on Hari Keluarga TPB ITB 2009 with my friends and after that, PPN.

please with me luck!! :)

:)

2010-05-21T10:13:00.002+07:00

this is a cake, and this cake is rather special♥

colorful life :)

2010-05-19T06:15:00.003+07:00

well hello all! :)

recently something very big has happened to my life. and all of sudden, my life has changed within few days. really change. i really think that i don't have to mention what's changing if you are my best friend then you will know what's really CHANGING.

and now i'm quite happy. thank you ya Allah :)
i'm gonna walk carefully now while still having loads of curiosity about "this"

i just hope that this time everything will be incredible and it the fun will last :)
and now. let's have fun miaw miaw!!
let's paint it in a very colorful way!

:3

and and ok a bit update.

i got AB and AB for chemistry and physics. i'm really grateful. i mean, i really flunk physics and i got a bad chemistry score for the first mid test. but it ends up with total score 71, and 72 is A. i really hope that miracle will happen and my chemistry score will be an A :P

my band's

angsa dan serigala

is playing today and tomorrow. today is at blitz megaplex for a charity event at 9 pm. tomorrow is SMAN 5 Firetory Expo, and the L.O will be my old plurk friends :)
please kindly drop by and say hello hahaha :D

and my other band, voice of june will play in jatinangor this sunday. oh, i never been to jatinangor before. i hope it'll be fun :p

i'm gonna have Program Perkenalan Nymphaea next week. pray for me.

i'm gonna bake cake today. ahem.

and i'm quite happy and feeling lovely. hahaha. thanks to everyone :)

gotta go now, i'll give more update later on! cheers!

Liebe, Afifa Ayu♥

Indonesian Cutting Edge Music Award 2010 =)

2010-05-10T17:50:00.009+07:00

ok, a little update.
i'm doing my final exams right now. pray for me. and also so many final project! calculus, physics, and SAS and still have to fix my running test score :P

so i don't have much time.

btw, my band angsa dan serigala is one of the nomination of INDONESIAN CUTTING EDGE MUSIC AWARD 2010 in the category of THE BEST NEWCOMER! =)

so, i really appreciate if you vote for my band.
here's the step :

1. go here , the official website of ICEMA 2010.

2.click the best new comer tab.

3.choose 'vote for best new comer'

4.choose ' ANGSA DAN SERIGALA - bersamaku ' don't forget to fill the form and then check your email and verify your vote! :)

thank you very much all :) your vote will really really help us! :)

and for upcoming show, tomorrow, tuesday 10th of May we will have a show at UNPAR Bandung in International Relation Expo-Youthphoria at 5 pm (right after my Sistem Alam Semesta final test, gotta get out of the class fast LOL)

for more information, just go here

and gotta go now! still have 7 Chapters for Sistem Alam Semesta :)

Love, Fifa♥

you'll be surprised to read this.

2010-05-01T07:04:00.002+07:00

hello all, finally i cannot let this thing buried inside my head. i have a story for you all. and please read it carefully :)

i'm trying out a very main stream thing right now.. which is OSJUR. hahaa. yesterday the seniors interviewed us, they also ask me for my Curriculum Vitae and they also give us some personality test.
and yesterday they ask me, "what do you think about an anti social person?"

hahaha, i guess they're asking this question into the wrong person. since i know, some people labels me as an antisocial. but whatever, i really have to ignore their thoughts.
do they pay for your tuition? NO.
do they care for you when you are down? NO.
do they know you exactly? NO.
have i ever tried to interfere them? NO.

so why should i care?

i'm very sorry , but i think that people that label a person as an anti social has a shallow mind. you can't expect anyone to be like you, God make everyone to be different, and if someone's different from you, why should you take a really big deal of it?

if you think that i am an antisocial, ok that's ok. you can say that i am arrogant etc. but i really have to say that i have another responsibilities out there and priority list. if i can come into a gathering then i will come. but my responsibilities have been built 2 years before i enter ITB, if my responsibilty clash with gathering etc. then i will have to choose my responsibility.

you can say, that i only have an indie band. but no matter how small is my band, i want to be give my dedication fully. maybe we are only an indie band but we're serious. we have vision and mission. if you say being an indie band member is not a big deal, it is a big deal for me. no matter how small the scope is, if you're serious then someday better things will come to you, insya Allah.

and it's tiring too of course. maybe you think that practicing 2 hours in studio is not a big deal. but it's sometimes tiring, especially when after that you still have to study until 10 pm at home. and wake up again at 4 am to study more. and checksound? it takes my time too, i bring books to be read while waiting because you will not know how long it will take. and recording? one shift equals 6 hours, and your time to take your playing will only be about 1 hours, the rest of the time? i usually bring books, again to read. and the performance? when you come on stage you have to smile, you have to play whole heartedly, you have to smile, you have to be cheery. when you have big troubles or your body is sick you still have to play like that. there's no excuse, in stage you have to look incredibly nice for the audiences. because sometimes they pay to see you, they have give their time to see you. and the only way to appreciate it is to give the best service for them.

and my other business as a wedding musician. i really love it. and although it's still a small one it's evolving. i have to practice and play as best as i can. you will not be happy if the musician's in your wedding is playing sucks. you will also be unhappy if you attend a wedding with a bad singer.

and also my own study. MY PARENT HAS GIVEN ME ALL THE BEST. good schools, paying for my expensive school and university tuition. they gave me english course that costs 400000IDR a month for my future. they paid my USM and all of those stuffs before i enter ITB, like entering Bimbingan Belajar Daniel. they have bought me all the original book. they also let me photocopied all of those heavy book per chapter so i can bring only the chapter that i need for one day because they don't want me to carry those heavy things with my small body. they have gave me music course to stabilize my right and left brain.

they provide me driver to go to school and a car, later on if i can drive properly. if i ask money from them, they will give it without asking, sometimes more then what i need. hopefully now, for everyday's life like lunch in campus, buying stationary, buying my unimportant things (like dress, jewelry, felt markers, and fancies)i already can afford it myself. i know how hard is it to work, to get money. so i try to manage my own money as good as i can. i'm saving it in my bank, i bring snacks to campus so i don't have to buy unimportant meals (which is sometimes doesn't contain good nutrition too)
i think that there's NO NO NO EXCUSE FOR ME TO HAVE A BAD GPA.
there's NO EXCUSE FOR ME NOT TO FINISH MY UNIVERSITY IN 4-4,5 YEARS.
there's NO EXCUSE FOR ME NOT TO ATTEND A SUMMER SCHOOL OR NOT TO GET A SCHOLARSHIP.

the only thing that you can do for your parent is to make them proud. they contribution to you is ultimate. you should think about your parent first, before you think about some social group.

and i try to help mom at home. i try to go home early so that i can help her doing something. nowadays, it's rather hard for me. since i have my indie band, another band, and my job. so whenever i have a free time, well family must come first.

for me it's not the time to playing around, i have to stick to my plan. to be focus. i'm living in a pressure cooker, but i don't care.

hm, that's for my case.

the point is, a person has reason for them to be rather inactive in one social group. maybe they have a different burden than you. for my case, my burden is from the beginning all of my own choices.
but what if they have no choices?

maybe they have to earn their own money for they school tuition? we don't know about that.
maybe their parent is super strict and demanding them for a good GPA, to get a scholarship, to ? we don't know about that.
maybe they have to take care of their smaller siblings? we don't know about that.
maybe their mother is sick and they have to be at their mother's side? we don't know about that.
or maybe they just have another passion like me?

so please please please.
why you all have to be like "OK LET'S ELIMINATE THE ANTISOCIALS!"
or sending things in twitters plurks etc. "THE ANTISOCIALS IS MAKING BURDEN FOR OUR CLASSYEAR, THEY DON'T CONTRIBUTE AT ALL. THEY WILL REGRET THEIR ATTITUDE!"

we the antisocials (on your perspective)never want to eliminate you.
please please please just live in harmony.

if we're not disturbing you then why you have to disturb me?
personally you see, if i can come to one gathering then i'll come, i'll help.

please respect each other, we're just the same. we're just a human.

writing down in the behalf of the "so called-antisocials"

Afifa Ayu

update!

2010-05-01T07:04:00.001+07:00

uh well, hello all. sorry i didn't post anything for weeks. i just had my physics test yesterday.

finally i have came into the last 3 weeks of Tahap Persiapan Bersama (ITB's first year) and those weeks will not be easy, at all :p
i need to be focus in my study alsoo in my other responsibility (here you see me stealing time at 6am in the morning before studying and later on attending my band's practice for tomorrow's performance at 9am -___-)

btw, for the performance..

don't forget to come to FISIP FAIR UNPAD tomorrow at Sasana Budaya Ganesha, my band gonna play in the indoor stage at 3pm. afterwards there will be a lot of really GREAT band, for example Mocca, Kahitna, Rocketrockers, THE SIGIT, etc.
on the spot ticket IDR60.000

:)

ok then, i'm gonna have gazzilions of exam (exaggerating) and projects for the end of this semester.
chemistry, final exam of : Sistem Alam Semesta, biology, calculus, sports, and english (for me my presentation test) i also have Research Based Learning for physics, calculus project, SAS project, and also i haven't finished my sports test (but i'll try to finish it from next week, my leg is hopefully getting better and i get a new medication that seems to improved it)

right now that's the most important thing that keep buzzing in my head :p i need a good GPA, i think it will not be as good as my last GPA, because i know, to have an A or AB or B in sports is rather impossible. but i still don't know yet, i have to pray, keep my finger crossed and strive HARD, God, please make my GPA good and let me enter microbiology, amen! :)

i'm also dreaming to see my name in the dean list of School of Life Sciences and Technology. ahhaha. just pray for me :3 i want to make my mom and dad proud of me :) if my GPA this semester is the same with the last semester, maybe i'd enter the deanlist :D

and i really want to search for a summer school in holland, like my sister does. but right now please just be focus to final exam and entering microbiology and also sneaking into deanlist hahaha :DD *you can't blame me for dreaming, right?

violin and physics♥

2010-04-17T11:50:00.004+07:00

hey hello all! :)

ok, now i want to tell you a story about two things. violin and physics.
well, i LOVE violin while i HATE physics. but this two things have a connection to each other.
ok, i used to only know their connections which are too conceptual. for example tension concept (for the strings), frequency concept (for the notes) and many other lame thing that i didn't like. LOL.

but recently my physics lecturer give a lecture about electromagnetic induction. as i have mentioned in my earlier post, i hate induction because it involves Right Hand Rule.

but then, my teacher came to the implementation of electromagnetic induction : GUITAR PICK UP (also work as well as violin pick up) and MICROPHONE. i was very astonished and happy.

i mean, i never know how my pick up works. my friends always ask to me how this pick up works, and i don't know, and also at that time i was too lazy to search it on google ^^"

and see how it works, in my opinion. please correct me if i'm wrong!

in violin the pick up is connected to the violin bridge. when we play a note, the strings will vibrate and the violin bridge will also vibrate.
here's a picture of a violin brige plus pick up..

now, let's imagine a coil and a magnetic bar, well here's the picture.

and violin string is analogous of the magnetic bar, violin string is made of a magnetic material. while the pick up part that is connected to the bridge is analogous to the coil.
when we play a note the string will vibrate. the vibration is like the movement of the magnetic bar into and out of the coil. the vibration will give a change into the magnetic flux (the number of magnetic line that pass through a surface perpendiculary). the magnetic flux change thus will make the coil (or the pick up part, in this case) to be inducted. it will make the pick up to be have an induction current.
this thing will make the sound of your violin, sound wave to be translated into electrical current. this change make it possible for the current to be delivered to the amplifier. and the amplifier will make your violin sounds louder :)

ok i don't what's going on inside my head. why i post thing like this in my blog? i mean.. physics! so eww~ but whatever, i just feel like writing it.

and talking about pickup.
my first pick up is a V 200 Fishman Pickup.

here's the case.

and here's how it looks.

my old v 200 fishman pickup (she (hahaha it has a gender LOL) has been working with me for 5 years)is now retiring. mm, not exactly now, but next week.
ok she has been quite troublesome lately. many soundmans said that the pick up made noises (due to lack of grounding). angsa dan serigala's soundman, kang gilar, also said that he has to keep the volume down because if the volume is up my violin will sound so 'cempreng' (oh my God, i don't know what's cempreng in english, anyone?)

so i order a new pick up, a LR Bagg (the same type of my teacher's) from USA.
and the pick up has just arrived! here take a look!

here's the case!

and take a look inside :)

since the installment of my LR Bagg requires several days (replacing the violin bridge plus adjusting it to my violin) so i haven't changed my pick up yet. i cannot 'hospitalized' my violin this weekend because i have 2 performances and 1 recording (sometimes weekend is just as busy and as hectic as weekdays, it just has a different pressure -__-)

well, so this weekend will be the last week of my V 200 Fishman, after all of her hard works :(

now suddenly i think i have the reason to write this post. i write it for my lovely V 200 Fishman, as a tribute to her. my expression of thank you for her incredible performance.and also my expression of gratitude for this entire 5 years.

bye bye my lovely V 200 Fishman Pickup! you can rest well now, i will always remember you as my first pick up, my first loyal companion to reach my goal of being a dazzling violinist! :)

Liebe, fifa♥

hey!

2010-04-15T18:47:00.002+07:00

you have been such a romantic vacation fling, and we spend a good time together. but that's all. you're only a prince, not a knight. sorry honey, my heart is not for you.

a quick study updates ^^

2010-04-14T10:28:00.006+07:00

wow hello! :)

i just feel like writing a quick update about my study ^^
okay, i've finished all of my first midterm. i got 51 (out of 54) in calculus. 55 (out of 100) in chemistry, 53 (out of 100) in physics, and 89 (out of 100) in biology.

i have two scores that actually a bit disappoint me, and make me feel really really inferior. but i know just being disappointed all the time will not increase my score.
i have to study more, be more focus, ignore the valedictorian's score, be postive, be grateful, and also pray to Allah.
that i would have a score that suits my sacrifice.
i mean if i study hard, God, please increase my score.
and if i am lazy, i don't mind to have bad scores, it's just the consequences.

and i'm still like usual, still in my old hobbies of writing my notes with colourful markers. still feel retarded in the class, and have to catch up at home real hard.
and still in my own way of being study oriented : class home class studio home class soundcheck class vocal course class violin course class stage class home.
(this is a bit strange form of study oriented, but whatever. this is my life anyway :3)

well gotta study harder for chem and physics. strangely i wanna proof that being a member of an indie band, and using blackberry as your phone will not make you flunk and your grade plummet, LOL. and also i wanna beat someone and some cliques in my class hahaha. ok i know that those are such a funny, immature, and ridiculous study motivation, but i don't care :D as long as i have a motivation and it will not harm anyone, i think that's pretty fine to me.

and now here comes the second midterm.

next week is calculus and i really hope that i can study calculus from this week.

because most of the subject will involve 3D orientation (vectors and parametric curve). and my brain is definitely not made for 3D :D for function with two or more variables and also matrices i'm doing quite okay. just.. pray for me.

two weeks from now is physics.

i'm doing quite with the equations of magnetic and induction but not with the RIGHT HAND RULE. ok, God give me a miracle please. i will study really hard!

and chemistry? also have to study real hard. i won't flunk this time, i hope.

so gotta study hard, real hard.

:)

ok, maybe that's all for my quick update, i gotta go for my chemistry last experiment! (yippie) see you later!

Liebe♥

download 'em!

2010-04-10T15:34:00.002+07:00

i'm dreaming of having an EP of my own, someday.

i love to make songs.

right now i have 4 songs that have been recorded, feel free to download it and listen to it and give a comments and constructive critics about my songs.

just go here.
and you'll find 4 songs of mine.
bumi
rindu
indonesiaku
anak negri

and i'm creating new songs also right now, to enrich my song's library. pray for me! :)
later on i'll get myspace for my own song also. pray for me.

Liebe, fifa♥
(currently studying:electromagnetic induction, geez -___-)

cupcake♥

2010-04-10T14:45:00.004+07:00

my father has just bought me cupcakes from jakarta. maybe you have heard of this cupcakes store by chocalot in cilandak town square or plaza indonesia.

the cupcakes are undeniably EXTRA CUTE. EXTRA SWEET and GIRLY and it has such a strong fragrant. just eat it, and you will feel like flying over the rainbow in a fairy land's sky :3
the cupcakes are just too beautiful. just take a look to their websiteand you'll see what a beautiful cupcakes that they have.

oh well, talking about cupcakes. i love to bake cupcakes also.

my cupcakes is not that beautiful. but i think it tastes more simple and home made-ish. and just before i leave my laptop and do some violin practices and do my physics homework (oh God) maybe i should share my simple cupcake recipe!

this recipe is for my favorite homemade cupcake :)

the ingredients :

100 gr of blueband (or any margarine that you like)
100 gr of caster sugar (my mom told me that we don't have to buy caster sugar, which is more costly, we can simply make caster sugar by putting sugar into food processor)
75 gr of self raising flour
25 gr of cacao (van houten is the best, believe me!)
2 eggs

just put all of the ingredients together in a bowl, mix it well with electric mixer. pour it into baking pan specialized for cupcakes. bake it with 180 degree celcius for about 15-30 minutes (you'd better check frequently to your oven)

you can also decorate it, my favorite decoration is emoticon cupcake :D LOL.

**if you want to make plain cupcakes instead of chocolate, you can just switch 75 gr of self raising flour and 25 gr of cacao with 100 gr of self raising floor plus a pinch of vanilla powder.

well happy cooking!
and i guess tomorrow i'll bake cupcakes!

Liebe, fifa♥

self determination.

2010-04-09T20:21:00.004+07:00

hello all, finally weekend :) i can post something more rather than just a quick update or photographs.

currently i'm facing a problem of again, inferiority syndrome. this one is quite acute, i've suffered from many kind of inferiority syndrome. and currently i'm trying very very hard to overcome this.

now i will do some review about my heart's condition lately.

ok, i was born in a successful family (and i really didn't mean to exaggerating or being arrogant) well, maybe not that 'successful' but extraordinary.

my father is a businessman that had begun his office since he was still in the university. my mother is a medical doctor that became a biomedical engineering lecturer, she's a super mother. my eldest sister received a scholarship for doctoral degree, she's flawless at academic. my other sister is a successful comic artist and also a good cellist. and my brother entered idola cilik, and yet a very brainy boy that plays guitar, piano, violin, sing as well as making song very well.

one of my best friend has ever asked, "do you ever feel under pressure?"
i just smiled that time.

but i really am. i am really depressed and also feel really really under pressure.

i really thank God for all of the things that He has gave to me.
i mean i'm still alive until now, my family is not poor at all. i'm thankful that my parent gave me an excellent education, from all of those favorite schools and now this university, ITB, until many of my extra lectures : english at TBI (until advanced level), violin, piano, guitar, and vocal. i am also very thankful that i have driver to pick and drop me off everywhere.

i'm also very thankful that my family is supportive to my hobby, and they bought me all of the equipment : violin, pick up, wireless, books, international examinations, and stuffs.

i also have a great band named Angsa dan Serigala, a good wedding trio named klabklassik string trio, i can sing a bit and produce money, and also i can compose several songs. i'm thankful God.
i'm very thankful.

but well.
lately.

i'm trapped in stagnancy. HELP!

when i didn't achieve much and being stagnant all the time, i'm feeling really really down.
i really feel that i'm wasting all of my resources.
and i'm drowning even and even more.

when my surroundings is sparkling and shining, i just can't help feeling hurt and jealous (not forget to mention, my best friends are also successful and extraordinary. they're just too good to be true)

i also want to be a star, a super achiever like them.

and also some other things bothered me, i don't know if i'm a good social person or not. i don't really like to spend too much time at campus and doing organization stuffs. i'd rather be at home doing something or practicing something or STUDYING something. to prevent my GPA from falling freely.
i think that organization's experience doesn't always have to be obtained from campus.

i mean, i'm doing some organization also out there. i learn to make events in klabklassik, i also learn to deal with older people, mature people for business purpose. For example i have to deal and do some agreement with client as klabklassik string trio, offering wedding entertainment
so is this wrong? do i have to be like most of the people? does my difference is a big fault?

i don't know.
i don't know whether my behavior is healthy or not.

i have too many questions in my head right now.

--

ok that's all for the sad and pathetic and annoying part.

i'm just.. doing some review of my heart's condition lately, right? i know i'm being very very emo. please forgive me. i just need to write this down.

but well? what can i do?
if i stop here and feel pathetic all the time, than i will be more and more and more pathetic than this.

and now i'm trying to do my baby steps toward my dream star. to do everything as best that i can. to be thankful in every God's decision for me.

to study more, to maintain my score, to practice violin. not to waste more time and resources. to smile more. to laugh more. to be thankful. to be meaningful. to be something. to be a star. to be beneficial for other people. to be strong. to be patient. not to be panic and full of anger. to be a good friend. to be a good daughter. to be a good sibling. to strive hard. to reach my goal. to shine like my dream star. to be successful.

this gonna take a long way. and a long and hard and bumpy struggle.
but someday i'll shine. someday i'll shine. someday i'll shine.

please kindly leave your comments. i really need a supportive comments and critics.
i want to be a better and succesful girl.

:)

2010-04-09T19:13:00.003+07:00

another good photograph!
another good point of being a musician is to stand there on stage and suddenly several days from the show, someone will upload your photograph. a photograph with a good photography technique and good camera.

:)

thanks a lot ahmad hilal, for your photograph!

cool!

2010-04-05T19:02:00.002+07:00

cool photograph by anata thyara pradini

thank you so much! :3

hey-hello!

2010-04-05T13:34:00.012+07:00

well well, another post! a quick update post, i'll not post something too philosophical or brainy here LOL. i guess i'll post in on the weekend :3

since my last post my life has changed a bit. it still do looks similar but i know now it's a bit different :3
and right know i really need a little break, so i will write in this blog.

OK, ONE, now i'm the additional keyboardist of a japan power pop band named Voice of June (okay this sounds a bit crazy and so-not-me)the girls there are super cute, super white, super thin, and also a marvelous dancers. but i think i'll have my own style haha ( i spent too much time with a baroque pop-folk rock band though, you can't blame me to have a 'serious' looking LOL.

ok let's compare this :

and this :

haha, maybe i'm in a wrong place xp

TWO, i lost my handphone and my uncle bought me an onyx blackberry. this is like a dream, really. my uncle said it was for my GPA last semester. hope that i can maintain it.

THREE, kak angkuy is not in angsa dan serigala anymore :( he has to be focus on bottlesmoker, since they gonna have a tour to Philipphine and of course much much more great and large project. kak ashaf also has quit, he has a new job as a translator, good for him. kak yulius (he is the bottlesmoker's manager) has replaced him. and now kak aji plays guitar and also, glockenspiel. and we have a new guitarist, kak baruna.
wow, a lot of things have happened in my band. but we're still moving on rapidly, and currently searching for a recording label.

FOUR my best friend HILDA MARDIANA has gone to japan. we (me, hilda, irly, helen, uti, and febe) held the farewell party at my home. we cooked sukiyaki and stuffs. for the farewell we made a CD consist of 5 songs for hilda, and also a scrap book. and i miss her so, nice to know that she's having a good time there.

our party :3

wow, our sukiyaki!

but fyi, i fell in her farewell party. i really fell. i got sprain, bruises, etc. for 2 weeks i couldn't walk properly, and i wore elastic bandage for my sprain legs. it really hurts me, a lot :p but now i'm a bit better. but still, i cannot do the running test today. it's still hard for me to maintain balance in my little feet :3

FIVE i have to say goodbye to his royal highness Arthur. you're just not suitable for me :) go live your sociable life, i'll not interfere you :)

SIXTH i read perahu kertas by dee. and it gives me a HOPE. for a true love <3

SEVENTH my violin teacher offers me to play with him (with d'cinnamon) and also offers me to teach violin. that's quite good, i mean with teaching i have to ensure that i have enough skill to be delivered to my future pupil, thus i HA to practice hard.

EIGHT i cut my hair. i want to look like amelie poulain. my mom said i look younger, and my friends opinions vary. from cute, sweet, fairy-ish until kobo chan-ish (ok, is kobo chan a girl or a boy?i'm not pretty sure~)

amelie!

and me!

NINTH i'll learn to be more grateful for what i've earned :)and i'll study harder than before, i'll practice violin harder than before, i'll work harder than before, and also i'll learn to be more positive :)thank you helen, irly, uti, and the other for your support! :3

and TENTH a lot of ups and downs. but you'll still there. thank you dear KEE! <3

and i gotta go now. kreutzer and bach has already called me :3

love, fifa♥

-_-

2010-02-18T20:55:00.003+07:00

ah, i don't usually feel this kind of emotion since i was errr.. in the middle school?

but now, comparing myself to a community that soon i will enter. well, i'm feeling a bit sad.
but now it's ok to write my feelings here.
since tomorrow is holiday and i've been working non stop since last week, i hardly touch this blog or just spending my time playing internet.
so i will write now.

i cannot consider myself as "kawaii"

my body is small. but i'm not that slim and petite. also my skin is not that bright.
i have some extra cute clothes but still generally i wear something a bit dark or pastelle colored.
since i was a little, people rarely say that i'm beautiful. they'd rather call me witty or dilligent.
some people told me that i'm cute. but my best friends who know me well, would say that i have inner beauty.
i am trying to be as fashionable as i can everyday. but some people are born beautiful and attractive.
i am a singer, i think i'm developing. but i'm not attractive, though. i don't dance while singing.
i am an instrument player of a folk rock band. and that's really not kawaii. i wear dark clothes everytime i play. and my make up is not cute. and since my band is a folk rock band we do not dance cutely.

everyday i try to dress and be a beautiful girl.
everytime i try to smile to the camera and be a pretty girl.
but i'm still a geek, like i used to be.

please forgive me. for this so unimportant post.

sometimes i wish God did not create someone that beautiful.

sporty girls!

2010-01-28T13:44:00.004+07:00

well well well.
yesterday was our (me, hilda, helen, and irly) sporty day :D

LOL. and today my body is really really killing me.

due to our PE running test that will be held 4 weeks from now, we decided to do some practice.
and ok, we came at about 7am and it was already hot like hell.
we met so many SITH guys.

and we ran.

so the test will be 6 laps of sasana olahraga ganesha's soccer field. and the field was huge, really really huge.
finally we ran. me and irly almost completed 6 lap for 22 minutes (or maybe much more) hilda almost fainted. and helen took rest.

oh and it helps to run while listening to mp3.
especially dua hati menjadi satu by gita gutawa and dafi.
though it made my heart ache but the rythm suits my running speed.
and it reminds me of 'my sweetest happily ever-after teenlit' scene.
but that scene will still occur, though. so don't be sad! nothing will change, right?

and now my leg and my whole body still hurts.

not only the science subject, sport in ITB is also disastrous.
and i doubt that i'd get a high score (like A or AB, well just keep dreaming)

but if i keep practicing i'm sure that :
A. i'd get at least BC in my sport. i'd pass. and i HAVE to pass anyway!
B. i'll get thin.
C. my breathing will be better.

and my resolution this semester is to be healthier right?
body and mind.

gotta go practicing my meditation from thais, music camp is coming!

cheers!♥

*it's a pity that i did not remember to take picture of 4 of us running :p later on i'll bring camera ^^

ok!

2010-01-28T13:30:00.002+07:00

ok, i'm not afraid. go on and say bad things about me. let's just see what will happen next.

first daay!

2010-01-25T14:12:00.006+07:00

well, first day back to itb :)

today i have free time from 10am until 4pm, so i go back home.
fortunately, itb didn't change my classmates. so i'll still stick together with my bests.
but they have changed the lecturer. i got new physics and chem lecturer, and i thought that they teach better and clearer. i gotta study hard to maintain my scores :)

^^
now 2.42 pm, almost the time for P.E. and i'm really not in the mood to do P.E.
after P.E i'll have angsa dan serigala's practice at smooth. really good, i really need to spend a lot of time with other peope. because when i'm alone, every bad memories, worries, and miseries will strike me, hard. LOL

i've just practiced violin in my brand new room. LOL i'm exaggerating i'm just redecorating and rearranging things. but now i have the space for everything. my study, a big cupboard for my music books and university books and other books, another cupboard for stockings, bags and other things, a place to put keyboard, violin, standpart, and all :p

oh, and in this semester i will :
-write more frequently in this blog (whether it's just a quick update, or something more useful like recipe, music or thoguhts) rather than gazing on
A's facebook repeatedly and i'd feel longing and miserable.
B's facebook repeatedly and i'd feel too hopeful and too pessimistic.
C's facebook repeatedly and i'd feel jealous or i'll loathe C more and more.

practice violin regularly really practing, doing etudes and classical songs. and improve hearing too.

study music theoryso that i'll be prepared for the next ABRSM theory :P thanks to mas becke for all of the books and practice books.

repeat each lesson better GPA will soon come, i believe :P

practice keyboard. LOL. welcoming myself as a keyboardist.

practice singing
being pessimistic and optimistic in a adequate value

learn to cook more foods ^^

arthur-ing all day (OK, this is getting so cheesy LOL)

pray and pray and pray :)

oh gotta go now. it's 3pm! keep reading my blog everyone. pray for my first P.E. today!^^

cheers!♥

chopin night with Aleksander Kudajczyk ^^

2010-01-24T09:58:00.003+07:00

brilliant!

this is the concert that i've just watched last night with mbak echi, mas hendy, and mas beke at CCF Bandung.

i always love chopin's composition so much. and last night, Sir Aleksander Kudajczyk played the thing really really brilliant :)

unfortunately i forgot to record his playing or take a picture of his playing secretly (because we're not allowed to take pictures >.<)

we (the girls) has got his autograph and took a picture with him, here take a look

thanks to the boys for their patience, especially mas hendy to took the picture :D

well, wonderful concert.
and oh, i have ever played 2 songs from the repertoire last night.

nocturne in c sharp minor, op.posth and one of the chopin's valse.
i guess i'm gonna practice piano again, harder :D

cheers♥

my holiday ^^

2010-01-23T11:19:00.009+07:00

hey all! this is the second last day of my holiday. in january the 25th i'd have to start my new semester on School of Life Sciences and Technology ITB ^^

ok, my holiday, was so nice. thanks God.

and it was unpredictable. thanks God.

ok let's see what i've done in my holiday..

the first week 21dec-27 dec
half holiday. i was still having two of my final examination (ttki and pti) but after that holiday began ^^ i spent a lot of time hanging out with friends and baking cupcakes.

i played at let's play violin it was great. incredibly, i didn't fail my czardas monti that much LOL.

and i intended to watch voice of june performance on ciwalk, but after that i had to go to play at cafe rumah 1930, so i did not watch them (sadly, it was my last job there)

and i played with angsa dan serigala (my dear band^^) on score ciwalk.

the second week 28 dec-3 jan
i didn't do much. only one music lesson, one band practice, making muffins, and then i went to braga festival to watch voj (again) but then the performance was cancelled, oh dear :p
right after new year's eve i had a real holiday, finally ^^ i went to hongkong and china. it was SUPERB!

the third week.4-10 jan
still china. and i went back home to bandung, exhausted. i had one accoustic performance at wedding with my friends, and finally i went to jakarta because my biggest sister, allya, returned back home to italy :(

the fourth week.11-17 jan
a hyper week. this week i learned to make chocolate mousse ^^ i recorded my song, indonesiaku for indonesia song festival 2010 (full version of the story can be read, here).

i practiced with klabklassik string trio for wedding, and then my sister's boyfriend birthday! me and my friend made a surprise party, and me and my sister bake a full of love cake (recipe can be seen here)

after that, angsa dan serigala live recording.

and klabklassik string trio performance at wedding. it was nice.

and yeyen and dian recording project at aru. i played the violin, mas syarif and mas yunus played guitar, mas ammy as the director, kak yeyen and kak dian, of course, as the super duper good singer (uyeah!) and kak dega (as the manager)
we really had a good time ^^ recording, eating, and gossiping. LOL. full story and pictures can be seen here

the last week.
last week of holiday. i spent my time doing a major cleaning up and attending music lessons and exercising on treadmill, LOL. and oh, shopping. i went to matahari BIP, and jogja sunda (surprisingly it sells very good clothes, i bought a nodame cantabile style dress, it was nice! you should try to shop there!^^ -later on i'll post my picture wearing my nodame dress, LOL)

i also just have discovered a cool boutique at setiabudi supermarket. actually it IS for kids. but i don't care, as long as they have a good dresses that fits on me :p

by the way, you may think that i'm a super shopaholic. but trust me, i'm not. i rarely do this kind of shopping spree, besides, i use my own money for previous jobs to buy the thing ^^

and then, i went to oculist, and the doctor said that i CAN wear contact lenses, only for performance, not for daily basis ^^ and why not? so i had the prescription for contact lenses :D but i'm still a bit afraid to try :p
and then, Indonesian Song Festival Team party at my home. we bought, we cooked, we ate :D it was superb also. i learned to make tiramisu, and it was quite nice ^^

and finally today, and tomorrow.

i am trying to optimize my holiday! today i'll go to watch chopin night at ccf. and tomorrow i'll go all day. to my friend house, attending RGB (ok, RGB and i'm going to play guitar LOL. what's RGB? full information here) and.. swim!

^^

well.
i really thanked God for this wonderful holiday, and a good first semester GPA. thanks God! :>
i really thanked God for a wonderful and supportive family.
i really thanked God for all of my friends and best friends.
i really thanked God for everything.

i failed my holiday resolution of practicing driving.
but that's quite fine LOL.

and my mood for this holiday?
a loads of UPs and DOWNs, really. but i've moved on, a bit.
i smiled a lot, i laughed a lot, i cried a lot, and i blushed a lot too! LOL :>

and after all, i just want to be happy. just pray that this happiness won't fade, guys!

cheers♥

cake siram cokelat ^^

2010-01-22T21:49:00.005+07:00

cannot really make a good english name for this cake, actually it's just a simple cake layered with chocolate icing.
this recipe is simple and easy to try ^^
i've tried this on 14th of january 2o1o, to celebrate my sister's boyfriend birthday. and it was quite nice ^^

the cake
250 gr of sugar
6 eggs
250 gr of plain flour

1. turn on the oven and set the temperature to 180 degree celcius
2. prepare a baking pan, spread butter and a bit of flour over it
3. put sugar and eggs in a bowl and whisk it until pale, fluffy, and stiff.
4. carefully fold the mixture with flour, pour it into the baking pan
5. bake it for about 20 minutes

the icing (for chocolate layer)
3 tbsp of butter (preferably lurpark or anchor)
2 tsp of cacao
2 tbsp of milk
1 tsp of vanilla powder

1. melt the butter
2. put the other ingredients and mix it well

creating the whole cake
1. put the cake in a baking tray
2. cover it with chocolate icing
3. make another icing (optional) to write and decorate the cake more! :)

happy eating and trying ^^

:)

2010-01-18T07:44:00.001+07:00

You’ll know that you miss someone very much when every time you think of that person, your heart breaks into pieces and just a quick “Hello” from that person can bring the broken pieces back.

recording session indonesiaku ^^

2010-01-16T10:42:00.006+07:00

i have just recorded my new song for indonesian song festival (ISF)the song name is indonesiaku.
this competition is held by indonesian government. and the winner's song would be registered to ASEAN song festival.

and i was just curious and registering myself.
i did not expect anything from this competition rather than experience. since this competition is open for everyone, i mean, a professional music player can also register.

the recording team was
me as violinist, vocalist, and glockenspiel player LOL.
mas hendy as guitarist and maracas player :)
mas medi as cellist.
and ilham as second violinist.
and also, mbak azisa as manager LOL.
mas edu as operator.

we did the recording on last tuesday, on aru of course :D
and the result was quite well. and i hope that i would get the best result for this competition :D
later on i'll post the song :)

here take a look of some crazy photographs (unfortunately not that good, because this pictures were taken only by mobile phone)

go maracas!

the manager ^^

hungry musician :p

mas edu, the cool operator ^^

ilham, doing his homework during the session LOL

ok, this brand new world is quite fine with me, cheers♥

learn to love again :3

2009-12-30T10:32:00.005+07:00

A Girl Meets Bossanova 2, the album from my currently favorite singer, olivia ong :3

a chinese singaporean singer, only 24 years old. this album was launched in 2006. i really love her sweet and airily singing voice.
and i really love the bossanova arrangement of all the song. the percussion, the saxophone solo and everything.

oh, and the lyrics of the song is really really suitable and inspiring for a little girl like me that strive to find a new love hahaha. LOL.

better love, that seems a bit near, very sweet and tender :)
and also confusing.
in a way that i am not really good in crushing somebody. and during the past experiences my love story ended up badly.
i don't really know how should i act, how should i talk, how should i smile, how should i dress. is this too much? or does he like it? does he feel annoyed about my presence? am i too talkative? what does he feel toward me? does his kindness mean something? or it's just his usual attitude?

really confusing. but sweet.
let's work on it, slowly but sure.
and i can only pray to God that everything will end up nicely :3

;)

2009-12-30T10:17:00.002+07:00

HELL-O!

finally, after -hmm- let me count it.. 3 months without a blogspot, finally i can write again in this blog :)

just an quick update for this post.
and my life has completely changed. really really change. hopefully towards betterment.
and i'm having a quite long holiday until late january or maybe early february.
and i have so many plans for this holiday ^^

and.
well i'm quite happy now. with my university, solitary, love, violin, and everything.

let's see the new day ^^

love love love everyday :)

2009-09-27T14:59:00.001+07:00

whew! i’m sure that i emit loads of this kind of pollution :)

♥ so full of love :D ♥

pray for me!

2009-09-27T13:52:00.006+07:00

haha. here we go again. welcome to my hectic life :D

okay.
next week i will have physics quiz. and maybe tons of homework and i need extra concentration in class to perform well.

and i have just found a competition of online video music contest, named battle of the songs with deadline of 2 october 2009. and you know what? i will follow that :p

ok, crazy.
well at first, mom saw it at telkomsel.com and she told me to follow it (of course she did :D)

i read the announcement carefully.
i was very positive to follow. i have the song, i only have to record it, have it edited, and zoom, send it to jakarta.

but then.
they need not only the music but also video clip of the song!!

at first i thought it would be impossible. i was like rrrrr -i cannot make a video clip, and who will make it for me?- and rrrr -making video clip? who would be the model? what would the scenes all about?

but well, God showed me the way :)
mas ammy and mas zaki helped me and giving me some basic clue about how to make a video clip and who can make it for you.
kak angkuy also suggested his friend, isha, the one who made bottlesmoker's videoclip.

and after loads of discussion.

with helped of kak isha i would make a video clip of one of my song.

i would record the music on tuesday.
and i would make the video clip on thursday. gotta skip classes though, but well, it might be my one and only attempt to feel how it's like to ditch the class in ITB first year :p hope that later on i would not be sick so my absent would still be 99.99% LOL

and hopefully, on friday morning. zoom it would be delivered to jakarta. amen.

:D

well, very thrilling.
:D

memang gak rame ikut lomba kalo gak mepet deadline HAHAHA

LOL :)

pray for me please :)

*for those who want to follow my "courage" to follow this competition please just go here for details :)

:))

2009-09-26T14:33:00.003+07:00

aaaww. really sweet >3
really hope that someday someone will make this thing happen by ym/skype or anything :)

UPDATE!

2009-09-15T20:35:00.000+07:00

ah, finally, holiday and I can write again =)
my new life as a university student, well, has made me a bit (A BIT?) occupied. Just look at my blog and facebook’s note, I really didn’t write any update for 1 month.

ok, let me tell you about my first month. My faculty, Sekolah Ilmu Teknologi Hayati is quite nice. I think that my faculty has the coolest acronym compared to other faculties. SITH from star wars. LOL. And also the blue building of SITH (used to be called labtek biru) is really cool. With all of the glass and metal material sometimes I feel like I am in an aerial base. I also love the tiles that form a double helix and also the all glass wall above it that form a giant mirror (I love to see my reflection there and wave LOL) and, well, almost forget to mention about the kebab and ice cream stall-though i haven't tried that, but it has been known to be utterly nice- and also equipped with green house and botanical garden, i think my faculty is kinda cool :)

my new friends are also very nice, diverse, and well, unique. ITB is a real melting pot, you have people from different region, all over Indonesia; varying in culture, habit, and accent. i will never get bored to just sit down in class and just looking at my surroundings. my friends are always very colorful. and well, right now, i've already had some close friends, although i'd rather not considered myself as a super social creature, but i do think that i made a quite good social interaction. and i love my new close friends; helen, irly, hilda, uti, febe; heart you all >3 oh, the guys here in SITH are also very nice. and, ehm, thanks to my small body, friends and also lecturer remember me from that. i know that being small is not always pleasant but sometimes it IS your uniqueness :)

and well, my progress on the academic. i have a good calculus and biology concept teacher. although i wasn't doing good in my first and second quiz of calculus, but i think that i'm doing calculus quite okay and i just have to do more practice. i have a sole chemistry and physics teacher arrgh. but i'm trying to be very objective and study hard at home, because i don't really understand their explanation. my physics teacher is too smart and my chemistry teacher is just a bit not well structured in teaching. the other subjects are going quite well and i think that i should not be worry. the conclusion is that i have to work extra hard, concentrate really hard at class, and practice harder at home. a good GPA is my goal and i have to study well to achieve that :)

and right now, i'm thinking of selecting biology as my major and ecology as my sub major. although microbiology with its molecular biology, genetics, and biotechnology seems to be very promising for a bright future but if everyone does want to enter microbiology then 5 years or 7 years from now on the world of microbiology will have been fully occupied and it will hard to be an excellent person when you have so many people concentrated there.
and why ecology? i think that ecology will always be an actual issues. environment is more damaged by the day and you will have to do something to make it better. someone mastering in this world will always be needed. and i think that this sub major allows us to make more interaction with people and nature. rather than spending a day in front of microscope and observing bacteria :D

ok let's move on to the extracurricular activities. i register to two units. ITB Student Orchestra, and Student English Forum. both ISO and SEF has evolved. ok, they're bigger and well developed now. and it's very good for them to have a loads of activity to welcome their new members and actually eliminate their new members by their so called loyalty to the unit. but unfortunately i just cannot divide my activities outside with my activities inside ITB. i'm trying to cope hard in ISO, well i kinda make it, following the interview, show off, i skipped some meeting and gatherings and i haven't collected iso black book. now they make us to make mini concert, hope that i can participate there. and SEF, i think that my absent to 3 meetings due to many things will not make me a member. maybe it's time for me to be really focus on music.
i think that i also have evolved. i have some regular things to do outside.

klabklassik is important to me, now that i feels a great sense of belonging. rgb concert is coming and i want to be a part of it not only as a player, i want to feel more of organizational aspect in klabklassik and learn to deal with society.
angsa dan serigala is another thing that has been a second family for me. the band has developed right now and i feel more and more comfortable. we have many dreams and upcoming projects. album is maybe the biggest goal right now. making an album requires a great concentration, practice and lot of time together. btw, don't forget to download our new single, bersamaku here and request it on the radio :)

klabklassik string trio oh how i love this trio. although we failed to play together as a team in Hilton bandung but i'm certain that job will still come to us. upcoming weddings, events, our project with kang pidi baiq, our plan to have a regular practice, and even our long term plan to make our own songs and recital (which seems so far away but who knows?) this thing really keep me busy and happy, i would never have a gut to sing in weddings and stuffs if mas syarif didn't push me. and i really want to make this trio established :)

my own violin study improving my violin playing is very important. i have to learn to be unique. my violin teacher think that i have enough basic of classical and now it's the time to develop my musicality and broaden my musical horizon. right now i'm learning improvisation technique (with my violin teacher's secret technique) beside improvisation technique i also want to learn more musical genre. i also want to learn about the sounding of the violin, since now i know very few about amplification and effects. i want to be able to make my violin TALK and INTERACT with people, not only making good sound and songs. i want my violin to be alive, i don't want to put a mindset that violin is only a musical instrument. my violin has to be a tool of communication and interaction that can cross different languages and cultures. violin has to be my way to express my thoughts.

and my own ambition i'm gonna make my name established someday. i have to practice violin and singing and composition real hard. i have to be productive in making songs, although it's really really hard. someday, i want to have an album of myself, playing my own songs with my family and friends involved. maybe for the mean time, my hope is to make a guitar song for mas syarif's recital and a recital of the trio in the following year.

along with all of the stuffs i've mentioned above, i think that right now it's the time to be focus. to be focus on music and university, getting good GPA and reaching my dream to be a violinist :)
oh, so many ambition and things to do.
gotta concentrate and work real hard! :)
pray for me :D

and hope i'll post more good updates in the next update post! :)

♥missbunnybiola

lungsuran daur!

2009-08-14T14:39:00.003+07:00

oh, hello all! :)
have skipped PROKM (general orientation for the new student of ITB) for 2 days, i didn't feel too healthy and i didn't wanna risk my unhealthy leg and my own health. i really want to attend my first lecture at tuesday with super healthy body and mind :)

anyway, i'm gonna tell you about a fantastic contemporary music group that i saw on tuesday, at SSDK ITB 2009 (strategi sukses di kampus)
the name of the group is LUNGSURAN DAUR.

in the hands of a 58 years old named pak dodong and other musician, they create a music that made the whole auditorium gasped and cheered for encore. the group consists of Dodong Kodir, Yudi Setiadi (his younger brother), Rusli Gustaman, Rudi Rodek, Asep Tato, Ricky Biola, and Dedeng Buleng.

and their most attractive point were their instruments. pak dodong made the instruments from garbage and unused materials. that explained the name of the group, lungsuran daur can means "recycle" in english.
i read that he was a former stsi lecturer. he learns music by himself and for about 30 years he had done many experiments of making contemporary music instruments. using garbage, unused materials, and anything available around him. his instruments are mostly pentatonic (inspired by sundanese traditional music)
he also made instruments to create sound effect. inspired by the sound of the nature, he created so many unique instruments with unusual and magnificent sound. inspired by tornado winds at the states, he created instrument named tornadong (tornado wind+dong (his name))
also inspired by the tsunami that hit aceh back then in 2004, he created instrument named sagara, sagara means ocean.
he also created instrument from unbelievable and unthinkable garbage, he even made instrument from unused shaver and i once read that he made instrument from his wife's plastic bag that sounds like a fly!
he also creates instruments look like a modern instrument. one of the example is apedong. apedong stands for alat petik dodong (dodong's plucked instrument) apedong is similar with modern guitar. apedong was made from unused material of a crumpled bed and it brings sundanese laras slendro note. there is another example named bassdong (dodong's bass)

very creative, right?

i read at articles in the internet that mr.dodong and his group brings the theme of world music. and they have traveled abroad to have their music heard by all the people in the world. usually his music is collaborated with puppet show, monologue, poetry locally. but internationally, his masterpiece have been played at international folk music festival, even collaborated with orchestra playing classical pieces of mozart with his instrument named sulangsong (some kind of bamboo flute)and played piece named "La Flute Enchantee" which was organized with UNESCO in France in 2006

pak dodong's music is unlimited, he's not only playing traditional music, his instrument can also jazz, classical, pop, latin, melayu, country, and blues. he even make a masterpiece composition dedicated for Vidal Paz-his artist friend from spain- named "Kuntul Flamenco"

all the things about pak dodong inspires me so much. he said that youth must have awareness of the nature and environment protection.
the key is to be

creative

like he said.
his word really motivated me to practice and learn music better. and to be creative in making songs and creation with anything available :)

SALUTATION FOR PAK DODONG :)

hope someday i will have the honor to play in one stage with you, sir :D

*actually pak dodong played also at dies natalis itb at june 2009, unfortunately he played at r-ict conference while we (me, mas syarif and mba z) played at biotechnology, fine arts and other conference.
we'll meet soon pak dodong :D

update!

2009-08-10T22:06:00.000+07:00

hyaa! it has been a YEARS (no, actually just a month) since the last time that i've updated this blog :)

ok. i'm quite busy with my FIRST YEAR OF UNIVERSITY THINGY.
ok, as i've mentioned before i'm now officially a university student of school of life sciences and technology ITB, alhamdulillah.
unlike other university such as universitas padjajaran and some others, ITB's freshmen the holiday is completely over now :(

and we have to do loads of thing. well, re-registration, getting my KTM (student's card) getting my itb's jacket, and of course a week of orientation -well uh, tortuartion?not sure yet-
i'm enthusiastic, well.

but i'd really prefer to just start studying as soon as possible. and i think that the orientation is rather too long, although the seniors won't scold you and torture you and ask you to walk and run with a giant backpack and then camp in the mountain; but i'm surely will feel all worn off after that. and i won't be able to keep up with my current schedule, night performances, practices, etc.

but well, as a good freshman, i will just follow the orientation, i will not push myself too hard though. i don't want to miss the first lessons due to my sickness if i push myself too hard.

and, university life will start soon.
and i'm curious about how it feels to be a university student. how it feels to hop from one class to class listening to the lecturer. i wonder how calculus subject would be :p
i'm really eager to spend my lunch together with friends at canteen. gather around together with friends to do assignment or just playing all day long.
i also want to try to be a real part of the extracurricular at itb.
ISO, the student orchestra, my dream orchestra :) since the first time i played with them i already had some kind of connection, and i really want to join ISO :)
SEF, i really want to represent itb for national/international debating competition. meaning i have to work extra hard, but that's ok. maybe me, marsha, gladys, or some other friends will be on ALSA UI again (for varsity!!) and WUDC (who knows?)

i really want to work really hard!

and i also want to teach violin for children :) i want to study violin, vocal, and songwriting better. i want to have more job and earn more money (if possible, a permanent job) i want to make many songs and record that and have my own album. i want to contribute more at angsa dan serigala, and hopefully we'll soon have our own.
i also want to get a good GPA, entering microbiology major, and attending one summer school. i want to finish my study on time.
and the most important thing is to have a better love life -not to say that mine is not fabulous right now, but i really want to make my dreams in this love come true, amen!- :)

yeah, so many hopes. but i will strive and pray to fulfill those :)

i will be a bright young lady, someday :)
pray for me :)

*P.S : i will drive a car to campus, hopefully, maybe one or two months from now. but i still have no idea how to drive a car, and of course, i still hasn't got my driving license. do anyone have any idea for a good driving lesson place in bandung? with good car and friendly teacher :)

:)

2009-08-10T20:28:00.001+07:00

my holiday, at jogja, candi mendut, with my little brother, ilham. (geez he's almost taller than me right now!)

i really want to pose like that with the man that i really really LOVE :)

detik dan waktu!

2009-08-10T20:24:00.004+07:00

omg, singing detik dan waktu at angsa dan serigala's performance at one esteem.
gosh. sooo.. WILD :p

that's why God make women to deliver babies :)

2009-07-12T09:48:00.005+07:00

You’re so sad maybe you should buy a happy meal
You’re so skinny you should really Super Size the deal
Secretly you’re so amused
That nobody understands you
(you're so gay-katy perry)

sometimes i'm really sick seeing my friend (all of them are guys)
who are very weak and desperate and helpless. and well, EMO and SAD.
ok, let me elaborate.

i met one at one of the so-called popular website.
all of the things that the guy talked about was about his weakness. he kept whining all the time. about the fact that he was not a good university graduate but he wanted so bad to 'help' his parent. but he was only complaining all the time, mopping around, and blame his 'not a good university graduate' thingy as the major cause of his not getting a proper job.
ok that was one.

the second one, was friend also, but not that close.
blaming that his family was messed up. his parent was not very warm and communicative. he acted so mean everyday. he never cares about other people's feeling and speaks mean thing hurting other people.
ok, that's one case and still tolerable.

how about double case?
there was a guy much more worse than that. ok, point out that he has a messed up family. and sometimes he said mean things and he didn't have any politeness. but the thing was that guy never moves on and seems to be hinder by all of his surroundings.

and the worst part is when that guy said that..

someone is an over achiever and that's normal because that someone's family is so damn warm, normal, and stinking rich.

GEEZ.

get a life won't you? everyone can achieve something if they really want to work hard. it doesn't mean that if your parent has failed to build your personality and stuffs you have to live forever with that personality. i mean, you can learn you can study you can adapt good things from your surroundings to be better.

ok and then he went on that it's pretty much normal if that someone have so many knowledge because that someone's parent always buy them books, and encyclopedias at kinokuniya, qb world, aksara, periplus or just somewhere overseas.

but well hello, this is 21th century. book store with prices over 200thousands IDR is not the only source of knowledge. go to library or download e-books on internet. if you have time to blab around at forum that means that you're able to afford internet also and why don't you use that time and opportunity to download something that can make you a bit brainy?

i don't know what's wrong with some guys lately.
it seems like some guys would prefer to blame their surroundings if something go wrong. and they're just too lazy to be true. they are trapped inside and rather than fixing and improving themselves, blaming and hurting other people seems to be their main activities. geez.

instead of learning to do better, they seem to be more comfortable to think that their failure is understandable due to their messed up family, their peer pressured experience, their lack of education, their physical inability or whatever.

i just think that some guys can be such a sissy sometimes.
and that's really making me sick -_-

women sometimes are much more tougher than men. girl whose parent divorced still can get good grades at school and university. girl who suffers from near death experience and brain death for a few seconds can still life and strive until now(okay, that's me-if i want to be emo, i really have stocks of emo stories of life) ok, girl who suffer from dangerous disease that makes her unable to be exposed by direct sunlight still have spirit to be creative and although it's hard she's still working so hard.

i can conclude that if women and men are exposed to a bad surroundings, men tend to blame the thing and women tend to strive and be better.

maybe this is the reason why God make women not men who suffers from extreme pain and near death situation when they're delivering their babies.
altogether with their nurturing hand and also their great power and spirit to strive, that's true that behind one great man would most probably a one great woman.

i'm proud and happy to be a woman, and i'll always work hard to be a good woman, someday :)

*well, mind the strange ending. it's a bit off topic, but don't blame me, i've had fever and my mind's jumping around everywhere LOL :p

princess diaries

2009-07-09T20:18:00.004+07:00

this is my favorite serial ever :)
and by the way. i've disappeared from a long time for this blog. i've been a bit busy, but well, tonight is quite free. and i'll write about my favorite book review. please do read :)

THE PRINCESS DIARIES by MEG CABOT.

such a modern fairy tale. a story of a girl named Mia Thermopolis, ordinary teenager at New York City. She is a freshman of Albert Einsten High School. She lives with her mother, an artist named Helen Thermopolis. Helen and her husband, Phillipe has divorced and as long as Mia know her father is a very 'powerful' man at France. and suddenly one day she finds out that she's a heir of a minor European principality named Genovia. she finds out that her father is a crown prince of Genovia, her grandmother (known as grandmere) is the dowager princess of Genovia and her chateau near France is a property of the kingdom that someday she'd rule.
since then, her colorful day began.

despite the fact that she's one of the unpopular kids at school, that she is 6 foot tall, vegetarian, flat chested, flunking algebra, and rather nerdy (but she's really smart and creative, and she do cares a lot about environment-she loves greenpeace-) suddenly her life turns into a new life that she never even thought before.
...
camera and reporters everywhere.
limousine ride to school everyday.
Lars, full time bodyguard to guide her everyday everywhere.
her face at the headline of newspaper.
a sudden change of behavior from her peers.
a fight with her life time bestfriend, Lilly Moscovitz-literally a genius, who has her own show at local cable tv named Lilly tells it like it is- and find new loving friend named Tina Hakim Baba-a dreamer and romantic novel addict- her father is so rich (maybe mr. hakim baba owns some oli refinery) that she has to be guarded by bodyguard everyday.
fyi, Mia and Tina make promise to lose their precious gift (virginity, i mean, aaaww) at the prom night. omg omg :p
Princess Lesson with her chatty and noisy Granmere, everyday.
attending balls, parties, and other formal principality occasions.
..
and..
..
even her crush, the most popular jerks at school dumped his girlfriend for her-the girlfriend is her life time enemy, a famous cheerleader at her school named Lana Weinberger.

being princess is not that easy and pleasant. her life changes dramatically. and she hardly cope with it.
after fighting hard with a lot of ups and downs. finally, she found her true love (well, at that time it seems that that boy is her true love for-ever) her bestfriend's-Lilly Moscovitz- older brother named Michael Moscovitz. Mia has adored Michael forever :)
Michael Moscovitz is well. perfect (i'd really love to have boyfriend like that too)
he's a total valedictorian, science freak, super handsome, member of a band, and goes to college at Colombia University. ok, he's a bit shy and all, but the things that he does to Mia is actually all very sweet :) that was very lucky of her to get Michael..
..

but the book still hasn't ended there.
with Michael, her life is still so full of upsides downs and surprises.
Mia also runs for the school president against her life time enemy, Lana. oh what a moment :p
at one book, Mia appeared to be concern with Lana's view that college boy always expect their girlfriend to do sex with their girlfriend LOL. and Mia also meets a boy named J.P., a drama and literature lover and a son of a famous movie director, that has as creative brain as Mia, and he hates corn (omg) and Mia writes short story about him, about a boy that hates corn so much until he comitts suicide by jumping into moving train (LOL)
and suddenly Mia has to play a role in a drama named braid together with that boy as the main role (and her Granmere made the scenario and stuffs)

and after that, the big disaster comes. it's from the book number 8~

Michael (which is genius like i've mentioned before) have a chance to work at Japan to make a robotic arm to perform cardiac surgery and have to go for years. she begins to suffer before her boyfriend's departure date. what if he fallen for a cute japanese girl? what if? what if? what if? and finally she decide to have sex with Michael. but when they're about to do it, Mia discover that Michael has lost his precious gift a long long time ago. and Mia is really furious and accuse Michael as a liar.
and they break up.
and Mia also become close with J.P. at the same time (when J.P. is also being Lilly's boyfriend)
and at Michael's departure day, Mia still hasn't said anything.. and she kissed J.P. (who had been very helpful and nice to her) in front of Lilly and Michael.
Lilly turns to loathe her.
Michael goes to japan without any word.

and book number 9? Mia is depressed. really depressed ( i can understand her feeling, i will be that depressed if i lose someone ) Mia turns to be a bit mentally shaken and she has to go to therapy, Michael doesn't give any indication that he will ask Mia to be hers again, Lilly is ignoring her and being super mean to her, and someone makes ihatemiathermopolis.com. that really torns her apart.
but finally, she can recover. and also at the end of the 9th book, he kisses J.P. and start to consider to open her heart for someone new.
and finally i read the 10th book. just yesterday.
the 10th book actually has been launched since january or december, but due to my university test i couldn't read it at all.

oh, and i won't give any spoiler. because the 10th book is the best of all :)
ok, a bit of spoiler then. 2 years after the 9th book Mia finally spend her last day at high school. ok, she gets into every school she applied and she thinks it's all because of her being a princess.
and she says to everyone that her senior project is about an essay of olive oil making history at genovia. but it's actually a 200 pages romance novel.
and prom night is approaching, and she is unsure whether she wants to go with J.P. or not, and J.P. still hasn't asked her to go.
and...
Michael Moscovitz.. is coming back from japan! he has succesfully made the robotic arm, and becoming a millionare right now. and he's back in TOWN.
omg~
omg~

well, just read it if you wanna know who WILL be the REALLY TRUE LOVE OF MIA :)

*well this book is really worth reading. it's so funny and romantic, for those who love comedy-romance. and meg cabot is a real genius, i love her and her book, and i also really want to have a writing like her, she tells the story in a simple but meaningful language and also she has a really strong characterization.
forgive me for the long and bad review and bad english. i just love to write so much and i wanna be a good writer someday :)

tumblr and blogspot..

2009-07-03T21:20:00.002+07:00

well, right now i'm currently using tumblr more.

here's my tumblr.

i write rather serious post and something educational (yihaa) here at my blogspot.
and i write something lighter and cuter at my tumblr.
because right now i don't really have time to write something educational, valuable and serious in english, i'm updating my tumblr more :p

you'd better read both :D
and in tumblr i use bahasa, it's such a playful and fun blog :)

and well, wait for my next posts. about dorian, lydian, etc. mode of music and many more :) and some new recipe as well :)

recording lalala♫

2009-06-26T21:29:00.004+07:00

fifa. kak poppy. kak ardit.shining and sparkling enermous pearl drum.

we were at master plan studio, owned by uki peter pan. the drum was really amazing -said kak poppy- and really noisy -said me-

we recorded one of our song. the studio is just so good :)

it was my first time to do recording there. the sounding was so good. they put me inside cubicle to reduce high and reverb (this is exactly what i need, violin is really troublesome with HIGH. if you don't ask the sound man to 'cut' your high and increase your middle, it will make you hear loud and terrible high pitched noises) and they also used sensitive microphones in front of me and above me, while still pluging my pick up into a direct box.

hope the result will be satisfying! and hope that people will love it :)

always ♥ you all so much, angsadanserigala!

finally, prom nine

2009-06-25T22:18:00.013+07:00

ok, finally. some post about prom nine of sman 3 bandung class of 2oo9 :)
for the short summary : it was quite enjoyable and -well- have to admit that my dress is so good LOL.

tuesday,23rd of june 2oo9

ok, the day started with usual routine. and i remembered that i have to go to school to get my Dana Titipan Pendidikan and also picked up rudini, and also bought my bag ( i hadn't got one )
so i went to school and finished up the DTP thingy. i didn't even know that my mom's stored this money at school 3 years ago, but whatever! :p after that i waited for rudini triyadi -my escort tonight- at kantin sehat sman 3 bandung.
i sat with silat and nyonyo, we discussed about our itb re-registration stuffs. and finally rudini came, and we went to pvj.
we went directly to the place that my sister had suggested (beside carrefour escalator) and gotcha. i found her (EHM, her) a nice and pretty blue-silver bag. it was 108000 IDR, and i used my own money. but the bag was really good, so i didn't regret my choice :p
and after buying korea's ice cream and pretzel dog we went home.

and i waited for air crash investigation after lunch, but it didn't show up. so i slept. i was really tired and sleepy. and i woke up at about 3pm and had to go directly to the salon.

i went to lenny fora salon, quite near from my house.
this is me and my sister's regular salon for big events, such as : this prom night. i went there when i had to sing with traditional costume when i was still at bina vokalia pranadjaja (LOL), i went there for my elementary school graduation, i went there for my junior high graduation, i also went there for my performance with the titans back there =)
first they washed my hair.
and before they did something to my hair, i gave them a picture of cinderella (an original disney picture) and gave them my tiara.
and the hair stylist thought that i was a junior high student (LOL)
and they did a lot of thing with my hair. the result was amazing, despite of my limited short hair.
and they did the make up. i really hate the part when they use icecube before they put foundation on my face. and i hate when they sticked false eyelashes on my eyes. i hate when they put mascara.

but the result is quite incredible :)

oh, scary. those gigantic eyes and fake eye lashes LOL :D

at home, i put all of the costume and accessories. gown, gloves, choker, and heels.
after that, i did some photo shoot with rudini. my sister really wanted to do photo manipulations for me, rudini, and both. i posed as a cinderella, and rudini as... hmm, korean prince? LOL.

and after that, i tried my best to put everything inside my bag. handphone, two wallets, tissue, camera, eye glasses case, battery, and everything.
but i ended up not bringing my gigantic wallet and leaving some money, my ID, and my credit card on my bag.

finally we arrived at grand aquilla. ok my prom.
i filled up the guest book and got some pop corn. and i looked around. there were pami (she was gorgeous with her black and red dress plus extra high heels) and peni (very cute with her witch dress and small hat)
finally we went upstairs to the ballroom. i walked with rudini and we posed in front of the red carpet (yeah just like movie stars)

and we went inside to sit. the ballroom wasn't very occupied and we picked a place to sit. first we sat with gita and upi.
then we sat with bunch of 3ipa8 girls(silat, seli,manda, nyonyo, tania,nenden, etc.) and ichil and wita.

great banquet :)

people kept coming. their dress and tux and costume were incredible :)
let's write their costumes (according to my memory)

almira wore a cleopatra costume. cool.
apri wore a gatotkaca costume. cool.
silat, ipong and many others were dressing up with korean costume.

hey, the girls :)

ael and okky came together. ael wore a black gown and okky wore a romanian soldier costume. oh gosh, perfect.
febia wore a snow white costume. yeay, disney!
aqis wore a little red riding hood plus her fruit basket. another disney.

two disney princess :)

asmi was a willy wonka. cool.
nyonyo wore a french maid costume. pretty.
and so many more amazing gowns and costumes and tuxedos.

marsha's gown is so pretty and elegant :)

anty and silat were also beautiful :)

and the party began.
but well, since i am still a quiet cinderella. i just sat there, talking, and taking some photos and try to enjoy the thing. finally we ate while watching 2009's video, it was quite good and i was starving too. i ate some rice, some chicken, lasagna, and soup.

and the 2009 performances began.
there were bands, tiloe's theater, and so on. and bands and bands and bands. LOL.

i sat still but my heart was enjoying the party :) watching all of my friends, some were sitting still, some were dancing crazily on the dance floor, some were eating again, some were chatting happily.
i smiled and try to capture all of the scene on my mind. as my sweetest high school memory :)

..
...
tick tock. the clock was ticking. it was almost 11.30 pm. and i felt really sleepy and tired.
and to really played my part as a cinderella. i really have to go home before 00am.
first, i didn't want to transform to the real cinderella, with poor clothes.
second, my car would transform into a pumpkin. then how would i go home? my home was near, but i didn't want to walk. i'd rather check myself in to get some room at grand aquila LOL.
third, i didn't want to lose one of my mom's high heels. she'd extremely furious.
fourth, tomorrow would be a tiring day. recording and stuffs.
fifth, i was really tired. finally i thanked God that Angsa dan Serigala didn't have to play at prom. if they played, i have to stay until the end of the prom, because our performance would be at the end (or near the end) of the prom. that'd be around 1am or 2am. i hate midnight performance :p

oh and i finally went home.

i was super tired.

and when i came home, it was 15 minutes before 00 am. great, i made it just in time! :)
i cleaned up my face. and slept still with my unnormal hair. LOL.

zzzz.

ok. now high school has ended. but the memory will never fade. but still now... it's time to :

SMILE AND SAY "I'M COMING" TO GANESHA 10 :D

yihaa! ^^ School of Life Sciences and Technology!

cinderella maen facebook♥

2009-06-24T14:51:00.003+07:00

it's quite strange. a cinderella is playing facebook with her lenovo♥ LOL!

prom nine was quite great, i'll give you a post with that after i've finished my band's recording :)

a cinderella costumed-afifa♥

2009-06-23T08:13:00.003+07:00

prom nine!
ok tonight :)
THE prom night. something that mia thermopolis from the princess diaries serial just really can't wait (for the sake of giving each other's precious gift with michael thermopolis LOL-argh, i haven't read the latest edition. will they be together again? but i vote for J.P. more ^^)

well, me? for the sake of using my cute cinderella gown, i can't wait for tonight too.
but wait, why did i choose to be a cinderella?
i didn't mean to really imitate cinderella, actually. i has the gown. better than cutting off my salary and use it to make another dress, i would prefer something available. some of my friend said that wearing costume is imitating characters and it means that you're not being yourself.,

but i think, clothes is just an outer crust of someone. i'm not being cinderella. but i'm being afifa that wears cinderella costume. and i think i want to look like a princess sometimes. ok, this is silly. but i think every girl has this obsession (at least when they were just a child) an obsession to become pretty and beautiful, wearing fancy dress and attending ball dance :) if you don't have it, no hard feelings. LOL.
and i also want to emphasize that everyone can be beautiful with a beautiful dress and a sincere heart :) you'll never find a princess in a fairy tale like me, but today i'm being a one day princess :) a cinderella costumed afifa :)

and oh well, this is my prom (and this is my smashing argument and my team split-oh, i miss english debating-) and it's everybody's right to wear anything to express themselves.
i choose to express myself with this princess dress. i don't want to reflect ONLY an outer beauty of a fairy tale princess, the thing that i really want to express is their sincere and beautiful heart.

i hope that i also have that, as a cinderella costumed-afifa :)
everybody can be a princess. everybody can always wear a crown and tiara. every girl is beautiful :)
and i know i always be my dad's little princess :D LOL. (though now maybe i'm a bit too old for the word 'little princess' i'm almost 18, geez)

ah, and now checklist!
cinderella gown (checked)
tiara (checked)
blue velvet choker (checked)
hand gloves (checked)
high heels (checked)
clutch bag (ah,still have to find it)
sincere heart (checked checked. this is the most important thing!)

i'll go to the salon at 3.30 pm, to do the make up (i want it to be simple and elegant) and the hair do (just like cinderella's hair)
i'll go to the prom with rudini. he'll be a korean prince costumed-rudini. LOL. we'll have loads of fun~ let's enjoy prom NINE guys, this is our once in a life time experienced! :)

*hope that it won't be too tiring. coz tomorrow i have to be my brother's "soundgirl" in his performance at his school. and also i'll have angsa's recording session :)

i'm happy. and i'm sincere.
i'm princess afifa (rofl)

thanks all♥

all you need is love.

2009-06-20T22:00:00.001+07:00

yes, indeed. all you need is love.
do a little demon deserve to beloved also?

...

2009-06-20T21:12:00.002+07:00

when you don't have a beautiful face. have a beautiful heart.
but what do you have to do when you don't have it both?
:(

a little demon.

oh, my week♥

2009-06-20T10:51:00.014+07:00

so let's see. i've disappeared for 5 days from this blog ( i mean posting something serious or something rather long )
and now. i've spent whole day on my bed. not making songs, practicing violin, piano or vocal, nor doing any performance or job. i'm having my period and it feels slightly more hurt than usual. well, thanks for my laptop, my dolls, anyone who have their account on on ym or plurk or facebook and accompanying me all day long, and the strange internet connection in my room.

so where have i been?

itb held an international conference on energy and environment.and klabklassik string trio (me, syarif, mbak zisa) played there. people always need music, especially after a conference like that. their brains definetely need something relaxing :)
and we played the usual format (me-vocal, violin, syarif-guitar, mbak zisa-cello) and the usual song list. except that we tried to add indonesian songs. traditional things like seputih melati, sirih kuning, and bandung. and oldies stuffs. like chrisye's song and things like tembang kenangan and stuffs LOL.

and it was quite a good and relaxing performances.

firstly on monday, we played at aula barat itb at biotechnology conference while the participants had their lunch. and the next performance was scheduled to be on 5 pm, at boulevard. but it rained pretty bad. so our performance was on gsg, and it started on 7pm or so. we had to wait for almost 6 hours. and we ate a lot. first at university bookstore then we went to warung pasta. oh, oh, gembul string trio. LOL.

*hha. warung pasta*

and we played duo etude, while having THE COMPOSER of the song there (mas ammy i mean, he played for the dinner-duh) it was really terrifying.
i almost slipped my bow off :p
and mas ammy said our mimic were extraordinary. and a bit scary. haha, but mine was better than mas syarif's and mbak zisa's. at least i tried to smile (i mean if i played really bad, people would not be that mad to me when my face is happy and smiley)
and after playing duo etude and korobushka (back to the old days) we played canon in d for maybe 15 minutes or so for the music background of a fashion show. oh God. i really felt like my left hand had fallen off. LOL.

*my hand must be trembling*

on tuesday we played with different personel. mas syarif had so many students (oh how i want to be a music teacher like him) so he could not play. besides, we weren't supposed to play on tuesday, we were replacing ISO's performance. so we played with mas hendy, my sister's friend. and it was really good :) and we played at boulevard campus center because suprisingly it didn't rain. i was quite happy, especially i could sing my favourite song, i will fly ten 2 five. and i met my ITB 2oo9 friends also. they're in itb's bridging program. there were regy, bori, etc. i was quite surprised to see them.

*our guest star, hendy reinaldo*

we had a day on wednesday. so i took that day to check my health at bumi medika ganesha (for usm's purpose) and finished all administration thingy up. finishing my satu atap first song (yippie, finally!) taking my violin course. and going to the dentist (-_-) well i have to wear braces (you see my tooth is extraordinarily bad and crowded) so lotta of thing have to be done before august.

we started again on thursday. it was a quite nice performance also. and i met agung :D he was also in the bridging program. and oh, we got our fee today. it made me really really happy. i have to earn lot of money for my future. it felt different when we can buy things with our own money, and it'd also be wonderful if finally i could earn for living :)

*thursday :)*

and the last day was friday. i went to school again to get my uan's score. it was not outstanding. but i'm quite satisfied, because i really did all of the questions by myself. and i got 9,25 at my biology. i'm quite pleased :) after that i went to bni, storing my money to my account. and i went to melodia. actually i wanted to register myself for abrsm music test, but then i just got the information that the registration for bandung test this september has ended. i think i'll go for 2o1o maybe for grade 7 or 8. may~be. and then i went to itb, for the performance. me and my sister ate first at university bookstore, i was really starving. and finally i could put on eye shadow and eye liner by myself (of course with my sister's help also) and i met so many 2oo9s and made friends with some. great! :)

*oh, the last day :)*

and after that me with my mom accompanied my brother to his guitar concert. at maximo cafe puri setiabudi. it was shivering cold. especially when i only wore thin stocking. and i got no jacket.

ah, and finally the long week is over.

today actually i want to go to klabklassik's guitar seminar at boromeus hall. but i got my period. and well, i could not get up.

ah. this post is getting too long.
actually i want to write about klabklassik string trio's history. but. well this post has been too long -_-
ok, i rest my case! i'll post about klabklassik string trio's history and some post about musicality later on.

byebye! thanks for reading.

♥Liebe

day 2!

2009-06-17T14:31:00.001+07:00

♥
klabklassik string trio at international conference of sustainable energy.
16 June 2oo9. 5 pm. Boulevard Campus Center ITB.
afifa ayu-azisa noor. featuring:hendy reinaldo.
♥

*still 2 performances left :)

international conference day 1

2009-06-16T10:56:00.002+07:00

klabklassik string trio. afifa ayu-azisa noor-syarif maulana
GSG ITB 7 pm 15th of June 2009
:)

bon voyage!

2009-06-14T21:28:00.003+07:00

this is my first fashion label post. enjoy it:)

dress-n.Y.L.a . . short sleeved cardigan-esprit .. bag-from milan .. sandal-colehan.

**model : afifa ayu
photo manipulation : azisa noor

grow me love♥

2009-06-14T10:22:00.002+07:00

you see, love is something that you have to nurture carefully everyday, just like a new born baby or a plant seeds.

it takes time to grow love. you have to nurture the seed everyday, until it grows bigger, bigger, and happier :)

oh, today is 14th of june. thanks GOD.

time to fight :]

2009-06-14T10:17:00.002+07:00

hello all! :)
i'm sorry for not updating this blog for 4 days(or maybe more) i've been quite busy lately.
i really want to optimize this holiday. and i have quite a lot of projects to be done.

1. making 2 songs for "satu atap" comic soundtrack
yeah. comic soundtrack. maybe some of you are feeling weird with the word 'comic soundtrack' but my sister's comic will be brought up by gramedia. the comic title is satu atap. well, i'm not gonna tell you the story here, because it'd be spoiler.
and my sister need someone to make the comic sooundtrack song. the comic soundtrack song will be related to the comic and will be used for the promotion process. and stuffs.
that's quite a good deal for me :) my sister asks for 2 songs, happy and slow. i'm currently working on the happy song. after everything's done, we'll have to do the recording stuffs.

the music format will be vocal (me), piano (my sister), violin 1&2(me), viola (my sister), cello (my sister's boyfriend), drum set or maybe maracas is enough(maybe my brother LOL), and... GLOCKENSPIEL (everyone wants to play glockenspiel and i'm really obsessed to make a song with a touch of glockenspiel. it's so sweet and dreamy!)
i'll have to buy glockenspiel. or maybe i'll lend to kak angkuy hahaha.

2. angsa dan serigala's recording session
recording two songs.. and i'm not gonna tell you what song that we'll be recording, cause it'll also be a spoiler. the recording will take place at ujung berung, 2 whole days. i'm so excited :)

3. and well, performances
as usual angsa dan serigala's performances at the end of the month, klabklassik string trio performance at some international seminar for three days next week, musik sore klabklassik, ririungan gitar bandung (seems like i'm gonna play guitar again yippie) and many more.

4. while i have to practice for my ABRSM sixth grade music examination PLUS music theory examination.

5. and i have to read a bit about microbiology, biodiversity and stuffs.
i don't wanna be retarded in School of Life Sciences and Techonology ITB in next august :)

6. and i have to learn to drive a car to get my driver's license.

7. Lomba Cipta Lagu Perlindungan Lapisan Ozon from Kementrian Negara Lingkungan Hidup.
thanks for mba putri to give me the news of this competition. i'll try to follow this competition as well. i have to do many practices. and this competition will be one of the practice for me to be a great composer someday (amin!) and well, fyi the price is 15 million (IF YOU WIN) and your song's copyright will be taken by the ministry. and the competition requires us to write the partitur also. well -_- but it's really still worth trying, although i'm not really expecting myself to win. but i have to try :)

and that's all (hopefully)
i'll be very busy and tired for sure. but that's worth it.
i have to be a super creative and succesful girl.
thanks God for all of your bless :)
just pray for me and leave supportive words on the comment box LOL :)
gotta catch all of my dreams up in the sky!

and right now i'm as bright and happy like this YIPPIE! time to reach my dreams!

Liebe!♥

p.s : two weeks from now i'll be 18! :) and today is special :)

:)

2009-06-14T09:42:00.002+07:00

angsa dan serigala at e-plex paris van java. taken from someone's mobile phone camera.
:)

musical imagination..

2009-06-10T21:23:00.004+07:00

have you ever wondered why beethoven's most brilliant composition appeared years after he had been completely deaf?

there's something called musical imagination.
assume that you're someone with an extraordinary musical imagination. picture yourself sitting still at your living room in a warm afternoon. and suddenly a melody or an orchestra suddenly play inside your room. you're not listening to a tv or radio. but that melody suddenly appears in your mind. you're not exactly hearing it, but your imagining it.
as an extreme example, take beethoven. when he had been completely deaf, his auditory lobe of his brain was not divided anymore to hear sounds and to imagine sounds. that made his auditory lobe even more sensitive to this musical imagination.
and melodies, rhythms, accompaniment start to pop in his head.

really you don't have to hear things to make music. if you have great ability on musical imagination.

some might only imagine music playing inside his head. maybe from music sheet or music that they have heard.
some might imagine simple melodies and frames.
and some might have an orchestra playing (his own beyond consciousness) symphony or concerto.
some might feel that imaging music before concerts and stuffs (mental practice) feels almost the same as physical practice, and almost as beneficial as physical practice.

whew.
it's such a great gift that God gives to them.
that's also explain why people who don't read musical note and even understand it can make a great song. great melodies, patterns, and rhythms keep popping in their head.

for me?
well. maybe i only have a little of this ability.
i can imagine melodies in my head. but i have to think it before. it doesn't appear by itself.
maybe this ability will surely help you on creating songs and composing and arranging songs.
but.. i have to be grateful for the things that God have given to me.

and keep struggling to create new fresh songs that you'll like!
:)

prayer..

2009-06-10T21:12:00.001+07:00

harus banyak tersenyum, bersyukur, dan beramal. nanti kebahagiannya datang :) amin!

thank you :)

2009-06-09T11:19:00.004+07:00

afifa ayu (student)

ammy ch. kurniawan (teacher)

i can't say how much that i love you mas ammy :)
thank you for bringing me into this lovely world of violin and music♥

*thank you for the lovely photographs, kak amel meilan :)

soo excited!

2009-06-08T14:47:00.004+07:00

hey!
i'm enjoying myself right now. because i've just got a NEW LAPTOP! yiippie :)

meet her (geez, it has a gender -__-)

a pink lenovo s10. that i bought at telkomsel customer day yesterday at BSM after i had a wedding singer (again) job. well but don't assume that i use my salary to buy this laptop, mom and pa bought this laptop for me.

not that my toshiba before was not sufficient for me. actually the feature was sufficient (since i only use laptop for facebook, blogging, plurking, chatting, browsing, making silly stories, making assignments, making songs and arranging songs with sibellius, mixing songs sometimes and another simple activities..)
but the real problem is that..

the toshiba is too heavy for me.
LOL.
but i'm not kidding.
yeah, if you know me you can see although i'm a bit fat (or i'm fat, actually) i'm really short and.. well. really WEAK. LOL.
and i think carrying that big toshiba would be a real torturation for me when i have to walk in ITB haha. i mean first year i would have big lectures combined with other major in place like GKU barat, GKU timur, tvst, moving all year round.

so i bought this netbook.
a pink one (i had to spend extra two hundred thousand rupiah, but for a PINK LAPTOP, i think it's quite worthy)
at first i was confused with the word 'netbook' well netbook is actually quite the same with notebook. but when notebook is identical with 12 inch size or bigger, netbook is identical with 12 inch size and smaller. and mine is 10 inch.
and netbook doesn't provide as sophisticated feature as notebook. its processor is still intel atom, not core duo. but i don't really need a high tech computer actually, as long as it works for the function i've mentioned before.

and how about the smile and chic vaio like papa's?
oh that's notebook. small notebook. small appearance. as light as netbook. but as sophisticated as notebook. but that means a price higher than ten million.
no thanks.

but i'm very happy with this laptop(yea yea, netbook) i love pink, besides the keyboard is really comfortable to be used.
but the thing that i like most is that..

the weight is only 1,25 kg.
thanks God!
thanks mom pa!

:)

*any suggestion for my new laptop name? pinky? that seems too cheesy.. LOL.

optimistic!

2009-06-08T00:33:00.003+07:00

i love her for the rest of my life.

God just give me the best. whatever will happen next, i hope that it will still be like my deepest prayer everyday :)

strange fable♥

2009-06-06T13:19:00.005+07:00

mr. crocodile and ms. littlebird.
by mr. tiggy and ms. piggly

once upon a time, in a far far away forest. mister crocodile and miss littlebird met by coincidence. miss littlebird helped mister crocodile when mister crocodile was caught by a hunter. miss. littlebird actually had fallen in love a long long before the situation happened. offered by mister crocodile one thing from him to do for miss littlebird.
happily miss littlebird said, "then, let me live with you mister crocodile. i want to be near you everyday"
pretending to agree, mister crocodile said with a huge smile showing his big and sharp teeth, "ok, i'll be with you."
but actually without miss littlebird's knowing mister crocodile was a very mean crocodile. and he only wanted to eat miss littlebird later on.
despite of miss littlebird's true love, for mister crocodile, miss littlebird was just his another prey.

days passed.
everyday miss littlebird always followed mister crocodile everywhere. mister crocodile always lost his desire and hunger because when he wanted to eat miss littlebird, miss littlebird always smiled to him.
miss littlebird always brought him some present everyday.
miss littlebird always told him funny stories.
miss littlebird was always at his side, stroking his skin gently with her little wing.

everytime miss littlebird smiled to him, eventually he smiled also.
everytime miss littlebird hugged him, eventually he hugged her also.
love had grown in a cold heart like mister crocodile's.
love had grown because of the sincerity of the miss littlebird's heart.

and finally mister crocodile said, " i love you for the rest of my life, my littlebird" :)

you see, love can grow.
love can change everything.
love is the ultimate power of all.
i am not afraid anymore. because i have love. love from God, parent, siblings, family, friends, bestfriends, and my best.

even from two very different creatures, love will grow, from sincerity and smile :)
being different in love is quite important, that's how we can complete each other :)

I'LL ALWAYS ♥ YOU!

h-8 post hha.

latest!

2009-06-06T13:02:00.002+07:00

as guest star at latihan konser 4 peniti at bumi sangkuriang on 4th of june 2oo9.
playing tiada from 4 peniti.

thank you mas ammy, mbak utet, mas ari, mas rudi, mas zaki.
thank you for letting me play there, i've learned a lot from you all
:)

*thanks for the nice photograph mr. tiggy!

lalala♫

2009-06-04T13:17:00.004+07:00

i love to sing. and i love to play violin.
i love to do it both.
although it makes me rather maceuh. LOL!

*and btw, the boy playing the guitar is my younger brother. he's awesomee :)

3 years of everything :)

2009-06-04T11:35:00.004+07:00

today i went to school.

for what?
1. to collect envelopes that'd be used to deliver my UAN's result (oh my God.why can't school provide us?i mean it's just envelope and 3ooorupiah stamp!)
2. to donate book for the library. it's compulsory to get a 'library free notice' to make your STTB issued. LOL.

and i wore uniform (although i didn't wear belt, and socks, and black proper shoes-instead i wore black crocs haha)

but do you know how i felt?
walking inside the school was entirely different than months before. wearing uniform inside school was different. greeting
i felt touched.

let's do some flash back.
10-5. 11 ipa 7. 12 ipa 9.
mk3. band3. english club 3->student english forum 3.

first grade. PLIST (sorry i only attended 1 days of PLIST) awkward new student. awkward extra big uniform. hardly kept up with the lesson. after school mk practice. band audition. broken ankle. unfair decision. decided to forget my love of my life, because he had been so cruel. got my first report card. had my first crush at high school. shocked. learned to live a new life. AFS test. spent more time debating and competing english than playing music. had a scandal here and there. really wanted to quit. almost found my true love but it ended badly. finally found other thing outside school. ran away. dengue fever. second report card (which was good!) moving to second grade, science class. went everywhere with ITB Student Orchestra during the summer break.

second grade. still awkward. got to know some new best friends with golden hearts. started to love someone named bear so much. started to be the klabklassik string duo. started to know the real music world, jobs, offers to play with widely known band as a string section, orchestras. audition for OSNI. got accepted at short AFS program to japan. resital dua gitar. heart melt than heart break. went to japan with heart as cold as winter. went home, desperately want to search a new love. ALSA UI, heart wrenching competition. ended up as quarter finalist, after being defeated by our own brother and sister. heart break. debate depressed. suddenly spent more time playing music than debating. accepted at twilite youth. new crush. another fight. strange crush. another fight and scandals. got A mark on my violin 5th grade examination (unbelievable) suddenly an angel came during the semester test. fourteen-o-six-o-eight. the refusal. my second rank. heart breaking events during holiday.

third grade. the hardest part of all. the first semester was all about depressed and refusal. tears and tears and tears. found it extremely hard to catch up with the study. joined primagama with my best friend. tears again and again. started to do tryouts, which was quite well. started to review things from first and second grade. being found by my dearest band angsa dan serigala. started to play violin more. more heart breaking issues. i'm all outta love. really lost my grip. third rank at class. things got better and better and settled down! (alhamdulilah) joined daniel. and daniel became my second home. second semester was better and more focused. i studied hard everyday. and i began to play with klabklassik string duo->klabklassik string trio frequently. i played with angsa dan serigala so much too. i got jobs and sang everywhere. i won 3rd prize of musikustix kompas song writing competition. life got better (alhamdulillah) daniel tryouts was satisfying. SIMAK UI. USM 1 ITB-> FKM UI, SITH ITB (ALHAMDULILLAH) and then national examination. bermuda triangle. school's examination. it was like crap. ujian praktek. it was also like crap :p last day of school, it was music. i played quite well. help rsbi selection and stuffs.

and here i am now.
longing.
waiting for august.
and... missing my school, my sman 3 bandung..

although sometimes i hate my school. i hate some of the way we get education there. i hate to see that this school is really occupied by brilliant people and i have to work like a lunatic to keep on with them. i hate to do some routine in my school. i hate to remember that i had some bad memories in some clique. i hate to remember that i had act strange to some cliques and lost contact with them. i hate to remember that sometimes i am a complete nerd.
but.
although i felt dozens of bad memories.
my good memories were uncountable.

i love this school! i have learned to strive so much in this high school. without this high school i would never learn about hard work and also accepting destiny. i also have learned that there are so many types of people and there are different ways to deal with people. i also found some true friends here. i found great teachers and i actually i get a good education here. i found english debating through this school. this school is like a simulation of life for me, with many challenging troubles, types of people, and happiness.

for the conclusion.

3 years at SMA Negeri 3 Bandung is very remarkable for me. 3 years of everything :)
thank you my dear friends.
thank you my honourable teachers.thank you for teaching me those lesson of life.

i just hope that we all will remember this memory till the end of time. and we all could pass high school with satisfying result. and continue our study in good university and having a better life after this :)

i'll miss you and love you so much, my highschool memories!

1oo : )

2009-06-03T20:39:00.003+07:00

kak ashaf tagged me on facebook the questions were quite good :)

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage = esprit passionfruit.
2. Last phone call = mom.
3. Last text message = tigger.
4. Last song you listened to = some burgmuller my sister played.
5. Last time you cried = this monday, after aNs briefing..
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice = yup.
7. Been cheated on = dunno.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it = omg! hahaha.
9. Lost someone special = yes :(
10. Been depressed = used to.i
11. Been drunk and threw up = never been drunk -_-

FIRST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. light pink
13. white
14. maroon

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = yes of course :)
16. Fallen out of love = hmm.
17. Laughed until you cried = yes :)
18. Met someone who changed you = hm, yes :)
19. Found out who your true friends were = maybe.
20. Found out someone was talking about you =yes.l
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list = omg omg omg!! hahaha.
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life = maybe 3/4 of them.
23. How many kids do you want to have = 2. twin!
24. Do you have any pets = fish.
25. Do you want to change your name = nooo!
26. What did you do for your last birthday = pray
27. What time did you wake up today = 7.30.
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = sleeping.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = tigger.
30. Last time you saw your Mother = last saturday.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life? = no. i'm grateful for my life :)
32. What are you listening to right now = tv.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = nope.
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = new songs to be made. hufh. deadline -_-
35. Most visited webpage = facebook, goggle, plurk
36. Whats your real name = afifa ayu koesoema.
37. Nicknames = fifa.
38. Relationship Status = i don't know LOL.
39. Zodiac sign = cancer
40. Male or female? = female
41. Elementary? = SDN Banjarsari 2 Bandung
42. Middle School = SMPN 5 Bandung
43. High School/College = SMUN 3 BDG
44. Hair colour = black
45. Long or short = short
46. Height = 143 cm. hha. hobbits LOL.
47. Do you have a crush on someone? =of course. i'm so in love everyday. HOEK.
48: What do you like about yourself? = hm. everything :)
49. Piercings = nope.
50. Tattoos = nope. it hurts.
51. Righty or lefty = righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery = not yet. alhamdulilah.
53. First piercing = never had a piercing.
54. First best friend = nawangwulan nitisuari.
55. First sport you joined = swimming.
56. First vacation = dunno.
58. First pair of trainers = dunno haha.

RIGHT NOW
59. Eating = nothing. i've eaten. remember?
60. Drinking = esprit passionfruit.
61. I'm about to = practice violin again. duh -_- torturing my sister with my etude book.
62. Listening to = tv.
63. Waiting for = tigger.

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = of course! twin!
65. Get Married?= of courseee :)
66. Career? = biology lecturer+musican and music teacher

WHICH IS BETTER :
67. Lips or eyes? = lips hahha.
68. Hugs or kisses? = XOXO. that means both :)
69. Shorter or taller? = taller, of course.
70. Older or Younger? = older is fine.haha.
71. Romantic or spontaneous ? = being romantic in a spontaneous way :)
72. Nice stomach or nice arms? = stomach,haha
73. Sensitive or loud ? = sensitive is better.
74. Hook-up or relationship? = RELATIONSHIP!!! of course!!
75. Trouble maker or hesitant? = hesitant.

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger? = nope.
77. Drank hard liquor? = nope. gimme one :D
78. Lost glasses/contacts? = lost glasses. one day before my departure to japan! LOL.l
79. Sex on first date? = omg. never ah.
80. Broken someone's heart? = maybe sometimes :(
81. Had your own heart broken? = yeah, so many times.
82. Been arrested? = no. for what?
83. Turned someone down? = yes.
84. Cried when someone died? = yes.
85. Lied to your bestfriend? = i think yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN
86. Yourself? = :)
87. Miracles? = YES OF COURSE. miracle will come to those who wait!
88. Love at first sight? = hm nope.
89. Heaven? = yes. insyaAllah :)
90. Santa Claus?= hahaha. nope
91. Kiss on the first date?= no.
92. Angels? = yes.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time? = just 1.
95. Did you sing today? = yes a bit.
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = no. i don't have the guts.
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? = june 2008
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = 14 june 2008.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = not at all.
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = yes! :)

♥♥

2009-06-02T13:51:00.000+07:00

yes i certainly do!♥

how life is still too diverse for me.

2009-06-02T08:29:00.003+07:00

how life is still too diverse for me.

angsa dan serigala♥

2009-06-02T08:27:00.001+07:00

i can't say how much i love you guys!♥

i'll fly away.

2009-06-02T07:09:00.005+07:00

17 almost 18 years old.

yes i'm still young, very young.
frankly, i cannot say "yes" when i have to be commit 1oo% for something. even if i love that thing so much.

i even haven't STARTED university yet.
whatever happens, having (at least) bachelor degree. for me it's a must. music industry sometimes fluctuate. and i think that having back ups is very important. i love music very much, it's the thing that i love the most, actually.
i cannot let my parent down. they have given me good education and facilities. and they have paid so much for my university and i really think that i have to be exceptionally good at my study, like my sisters. i still have dream to be a biologist. taking master degree or maybe doctoral degree. i still want to take exchange program.

in the meantime, music is still have to be number two for me.
but i don't know what will happen 5 years or 7 years from now, maybe i will dedicated my life fully on music.
but for now, music is still a part time job for me .

besides, i still need to find my music.
i love violin, yes i really do. and i do love to sing also.
i love playing at my band as well, while playing at orchestras is also my passion. playing here and there with my klabklassik string trio is still something that i really love. playing as a soloist is still preferable. and playing as wedding entertainment is something that i've just started.
i love folk, i like classical music. i love pop songs. i kinda like rock sometimes.

for me music is still so DIVERSE.
and i think right now it is the time for me to open up myself for everything. it is the time for me to learn anything available. play everywhere. searching for friends and connections.
and my violin playing is still, well, not very distinctive. rather flat. still copying my senior's style.
i still haven't found my soul. i still have so many things to learn. i still have to finished my classical study. i still have to develop my skill. i still want to learn another genre, such as jazz, blues, etc.

the future is still too blurry for me.
the entire world is still too enermous for me.
the pathway of my life is still so long.

it's still the time for me to fly with my little wings everywhere. searching for the right future for me :)

and someday finally i'll stop flying.
someday when i finally reach my final destination.
someday when i finally reach my future!

". apapun posisi aku sekarang, kalau memang rezeki dan jodoh, pasti gak akan kemana, pasti aku akan tetap bersama kalian sampai akhir nanti."

AMIN YA ALLAH!

but now i'll fly a bit.
searching for my future.
adventuring in this big world.
flying beneath the big and dainty sky in front of me.
reaching all of my dreams!

p.s. : i'm sorry for being self centered. thanks for your understanding, i really do love you all a lot. let's pray and work hard together for US!
thanks for being the PART of my life guys :)

i believe.that :

2009-06-01T21:53:00.006+07:00

: success will come to those who wait. i will not hesitate to focus on one thing, right now it's my time to learn anything , try everything, and develop myself.

long way to go..

2009-06-01T21:42:00.003+07:00

i hope that for now this is the best. i still have a very long way to go.
still so many options to be chosen.

more detail post will be posted tomorrow.

my BOYFRIEND!

2009-06-01T16:42:00.004+07:00

ow ow! my dearest FIRST boyfriend (hm, this line is dangerous. does that mean that i have second and third boyfriend? LOL)

I ♥ MUSIC.
and he's (hha) my boyfriend and surely would be my husband!

*strange post!

wishes

2009-06-01T15:59:00.002+07:00

hell-o! :)

let me give you a light post about my wishes.

university.
♥ graduating from microbiology ITB at 3,5/4 years with cum-laude result
♥ frequently attending microbiology conference in indonesia and overseas.
♥ taking summer school/other short exchange program abroad.
♥becoming a lecturer assistant.
♥ directly continue my study to take master degree on music abroad or biomedical engineering at itb/abroad.
♥ being active at ITB Student Orchestra, Student English Forum ITB, and APRES! ITB also AFS Bandung.

music.
♥ finishing grade 8 of ABRSM violin examination by the time that i get my bachelor degree.
♥ my lovely band angsadanserigala to be a great indie band like 4peniti or cozy street corner (it doesn't have to be major label) has our own album+video clips, etc.
♥ having my own album consist of my own song(bumi, rindu, lullaby, and many more hha) i know this seems to be impossible but i will try.
♥ being a good violin teacher and having my own music school.
♥ being a good seriosa or pop singer.
♥ having my own classical violin recital.
♥ being a member of professional orchestra (such as twilite orchestra, NSO, etc.)
♥ being an inspirational violinist like mas ammy :)

love.
♥ marrying (someday) my prince (will come) at 2015.
♥ being a good housewife who teaches biology at ITB, teaches violin at her own studio home, and performing here and there with her band, and professional orchestra, etc.
♥ living with (someday) my prince (will come) at kota baru parahyangan and having twin babies (girl and boy) :)

AMIN!

what a dream!

pan-cake♥

2009-06-01T13:17:00.003+07:00

pancake.. kue wajan, once my best friend said.

well, i've just learned to make pancake. it tasted a little bit too salty but you won't realize it once it's mixed with maple syrup. well, i'll try to make a better recipe after this, but this recipe will work as well :)

ingredients :
1 egg
1/2 cup of flour
2 until 4 tbs of sugar
milk
butter

directions :
1. beat the egg
2. add flour and sugar and continue mixing it
3. add milk as needed until you achieve a nice consistency. The batter should be thick enough to make a thick pancake but liquid enough to pour,
4. melt butter on the frying pan
5. carefully pour the batter on the frying pan
6. cook it until it turns yellow-brown, flip it to the other side
7. your pancake is ready! put strawberries chunks, maple syrup, whip cream, honey or anything you like :)

*sorry for the strange words. i will look up into english cooking book to learn more :)

let's try it :)

♥Liebe!

♥.♥

2009-06-01T08:13:00.003+07:00

i love holding hands, i mean with anyone. especially with my beloved.
it gives me power and a warm feeling, that you'll always beloved.
so hold my hands more!

:)

*btw this pic reminds me of something :"> and the girl's dress is extra cute!
sorry for continuously posting in eien no ai label!

I'M SO FULL OF LOVE EVERYDAY♥

quote of the day.

2009-05-31T16:39:00.001+07:00

for every flaws that happen in any circumstances, make sure that you'll learn from your mistake.

zzz.

2009-05-31T15:57:00.002+07:00

love is the most sentimental thing..

♥

2009-05-31T12:59:00.002+07:00

i ♥ you.
no matter how strong the wave keep hitting us.
i will still ♥ you.

home made brownies♥

2009-05-31T11:23:00.005+07:00

hey. this is my first culinary label's post :)
please note that i'm still a beginner cook and if you would like to make corrections or share your recipe please feel free to write down on comment box :)

this time i'll write down how to make a..

HOME MADE BAKED BROWNIES♥
*recipe by my mom, and it's really easy!

ingredients :
1 1/2 cup of flour
2 cup of custard sugar (or if unavailable, use white sugar that has been food processed before)
3/4 cup of cocoa (van houten would work best!)
1 cup of butter (use blueband)
4 eggs
1 sachet of vanilla

*notes : while preparing the ingredients, please do the following :
1. prepare the baking tray and spread a little bit of cooking oil and flour on it
2. turn on your oven to 180 degrees celcius

directions :
1. put all of the ingredients together in a bowl
2. mix it with a mixer until the color become shinny brown (please don't mix it too long, because if you do so the texture will be too floaty)
3. pour the mixed ingredients into the baking tray
4. bake it for about 45 minutes
5. cut it into square shape and put any toppings that you like
6. enjoy your brownies :)

try it, it's really easy :)

♥Liebe!

prom night ♥

2009-05-31T07:53:00.006+07:00

hey!morning all :)

my first post this morning will be about my PROM NIGHT.
inspired by pami's post. thank you pami :)

i'm graduating from high school this year or the exact time is this 22nd of june.

well, prom night tradition comes from USA. historians believe that they may have existed since 1800s, but it was first mentioned in the high school year books of 1930s and 1940s.
many said that prom tradition came from a tradition named debutante. some kind of ball to welcome the adult age of a girl. this tradition developed to institute formal dances for it, the dances often chaperoned and strictly only for senior student of high school.
in 1900s prom was relatively a simple affair, student will come for a tea, dancing, and socializing.
but since 1950s, since America enjoyed the luxury of the post-war economy prom had elaborated and becoming an expensive events.
people wore great new dress and tux, people wanted to come with a best looking-date, prom was held in glamorous hote's ballroom or banquet, and later on there were competition for the best dress, prom queen, prom king, and so on.
(source by prettyforprom, modified by me)

brought by many film, this tradition finally affected Indonesia also.
and as long as i know my highschool has held this event for several times. i remember my sister (she graduated at 2004) had some kind like prom also.

for me? well, i have no objection for this prom. this is like an event to celebrate our 3 years of study in high school. and since i love to wear fancy dress, i'm eager to come to this prom with a magnificent dress. and since my wonderful band is playing as a guest star here, well! i can't wait from this prom :)

hmm hmm my tips? wear a comfortable shoes because this event will take a lot of walking around the hall, wearing ultra high heels will surely kill your foot. yea especially for me, since i'm gonna jump around playing in a band :p

since the theme is MOVIE. and we're expected to dress like a movie star, dress with a costume from a movie, etc. i'm wearing a cinderella gown :)

here take a look at my gown : )

♥Liebe

B U M I :)

2009-05-30T20:37:00.007+07:00

hello again. i'm a bit over-posting. i know this is only my first day using the blog syndrome.
but i hope that my imagination and fresh ideas won't run dry after this.

well. as i've mentioned my new establishment as a song writer. let me write down one of my song lyrics here :p
this song named BUMI. fortunately this song won 3rd place at musikustix kompas muda song writing competition. with only a simple arrangement of piano, vocal, violin, viola, and cello.

BUMI

oh mengapa jadi begini?
mengapa, tak jadi hijau lagi?
mengapa kita begini?
lalai kita jaga bumi ini..

oh mengapa, jadi begini?
mengapa tak jadi indah lagi?
mengapa kita begini?
lalai jaga ibu pertiwi..

padi tak semi, rimba pun mati..
engkau digali, tanpa peduli..
padi tak semi, rimba pun mati..
sanggupkah kau, tegak berdiri?

bumi, tempatku berdiri..
tempatku mengabdi..
tempatku mencari arti hidup ini
di dunia, marilah jaga bumi ini
bumi, tempatku berdiri..
tempatku mengabdi..
tempatku mencari, kehidupan ini
marilah kita, jaga sampai mati
:)

this song tells you about our dear earth. that has suffered so much from our behavior.
the first verse questions us about the difference between earth now and before, that earth used to be so green and beautiful. that means that we're unable to protect our earth.
the bridge explains to you about how we've destroyed our earth. by cutting down trees and excessive mining.
and the reff is the persuasive line of the song. because the earth is the place that we live. the place that we search for the meaning of this life. let's protect it whole heartedly until we die!
:)

2009-05-30T20:24:00.002+07:00

our ♥ floats. what a saying.

btw, i really love photo bucket. pictures there are so awesome and romantic..

2009-05-30T20:14:00.001+07:00

new LABELS available :]

2009-05-30T19:01:00.002+07:00

hello :)

let me introduce new labels. since i want to make this blog more useful and meaningful.
i don't want to write only crappy love story and my silly daily life.
so...

here are the new labels :)

since i'm so into music. and well, this is the world that i live on. MUSIC LABEL. anything, music theory, instruments, bands, etcetera.

and right now due to my will to be a good housewife, CULINARY LABEL.simple recipes that i discovered and cooked :)

and also because i want to be slim and healthy, i might post something with HEALTHY LIFE LABEL

and since i just love cute clothes and apparel and i love to make photo manipulations. maye FASHION LABEL is not that bad :)

and well, since i'm gonna be a biology student from this august, maybe some post with LIFE SCIENCE LABEL as well. anything related to newest cutting edge biology research, and micro biology and nanotechnology newest discovery. i gotta study hard, remember? :)

and since i want to improve my english badly, so i'll try to write all the post in english :) please do make corrections if i made mistakes :)
just keep reading fellas :)

Liebe!♥

just welcoming you back!

2009-05-30T17:52:00.002+07:00

hey HELLO!

back blogging. since now i've nothing really urgent to do.
thanks God that i've finished my national examination and also USM ITB, and hopefully i passed to School of Life Sciences and Technology ITB. alhamdullilah :)

lotta things have happened recently.

like. hmm. as i have mentioned that i've successfully made it to ganesha 1o.
and i'm so into angsa dan serigala. my lovely band.
and i've won 3rd place of musikustix, a song writing competition, that made me officially a song writer right now.
and i've sung more right now. singing for life and money, i mean. LOL. i've started singing for wedding and things like that.
and i'm gonna take abrsm violin examination 6th grade. haha.
and now i'll do whatever it takes to be... SLIM! LOL. doing aerobic, sit ups, and eating fruits and veggies.

and and. uhm well.
lotta things have happened, but don't worry. i'm still the silly missbunnybiola :)
and i've activated my plurk account again.

well, just sit back and enjoy my posts!

another great day ♫

2009-05-30T17:51:00.002+07:00

jadi hari rabu ini (hm hm ceritanya agak-agak telat yah) lagi-lagi agak-agak HECTIC dan RAME. hehe.
sekarang kan udah agak-agak nganggur gituu. gak ke sekolah huhu.
dan kengangguran itu dimulai senin minggu ini.

hari SENIN. bangun siang (cape abis maen di bumi sangkuriang dan e-plex) nyampah. beresin kamar. hp kecemplung. (bodoh. hp kok dibawa mandi) panik. ngejemur hp. hp error. tapi jadi bener lagi (haha ga penting) ga dateng briefing (maaf yaa)
hari SELASA. bangun siang lagi. nyampah lagi. kamar gak beres-beres. siangan pergi deh nganterin mbak zisa ke reading lights, terus ke sekolah mensort essay2 anak2 yang seleksi RSBI ama dimas, meskhi, subhan. terus ngatur kelas seleksi RSBI (yiaat! dorong2 kursi dan meja, biar kurus ah lala)

dan hari RABU.

datanglah hari rabu. yess hari ini sibuk. aku gak lumutan di rumah dan nyampah.

bangun susah payah pagi-pagi. jam 7 udah harus standby di sekolah. pake baju bebas, pake dress batik yang nyla itu hoho. diliatin anak-anak kelas 2 yang lagi dihukum (ada si gichie juga) dan juga bu aan hehe. akhirnya masuklah aku ke sekolah. yang hari ini sangatlah penuh dengaan... anak-anak SMP yang ukuran badannya sangatlah gigantica. kelelep deh.
baru ada dimas. ke ruang wakasek. ngatur2 amplop dll. pengawas ada 1o dibagi ke 5 ruangan dari 3ipa1 sampai 3ipa5. 5 dari sma 3, 5 lagi dari UPI.
akhirnya subhan dan aria dateng. kita pun ngebagi2 tugas. dan dimulailah hari itu.

ada 450-an anak SMP yang sungguhlah enermous dan super ribut di aula. huaaa. nyari toa-toa deh. dan dimas pun ngejelasin sistem mekanisme dari seleksi dll.
dan dan.. tugas aku ama dimas, aria, dan subhan apaan sih selaku debater-debater yang telah retired?ngewawancara?

BUKAN!

jadi L.O.!

teriak-teriak manggilin anak-anak yang bejubel kayak ikan sarden itu dan nganterin mereka ke ruang ujian, make sure mereka ngomong ama pengawas yang tepat dan ngatur timingnya biar 1o menitan.
ngeliat banyaknya jumlah anak2 smp itu, aku sih udah nrima aja deh, pasti ini bakal CAPE.

eh ketemu izzati. kasian nomernya izzati masih nomer 37. which's bakal kira2 jam 2 keatas. mudah2an keterima deh izzati :)
aku megang ruangan satu. eeh, peserta nomer satunya wisnu aryo setio hehe. temen plurk haha :D mudah2an keterima deh yaa.

setelah penjelasan panjang dimas tentang mekanisme pemanggilan dll. dengan bahasa inggrisnya yang excellent seperti biasa (tapi dia jadi diketawain anak smp deh hehe) akhirnya dimulailah.
aku handle ruangan 1.
subhan handle ruangan 2 dan 3.
aria handle ruangan 4 dan 5.
dimas handle tanda tangan di aula dan nyiapin peserta yang bentar lagi harus masuk (haha, GO DIMAS, GO DIMAS TOA BERJALAN!)

yaa riweuh lah kita. dan karena super ributnya anak2 smp jadinya aja satpam SMA 5 marah-marah, heu. abisnya sma 5 lagi tes listening.
dan gitu deh. bolak balik teriak teriak cape cape.
karena pewawancara tiap waktunya beda-beda jadi overlapping. tambah bolak balik. lari lari lompat kesana kemari hehe.
biarin lah. biar kurus. dan asyik juga sih :D

akhirnya sampai istirahat deh. makan gudeg banda (huhu hardly touched it, aku ga suka gudeg. untung aria ngebagi chicken nuggetnya, thanks riii:D)
terus sholat deh. jalan bareng aria gichie. aawww! I MISS ALSA UI 2oo8 MEMORIES. YOU TWO ARE MY BEST DEBATE TEAM MATE EVER! :) pokoknya aria harus masuk itb dan gichie paksain masuk itb biar kita bisa setim lagi.. amiin!

akhirnya setelah istirahat jam setengah 2 lebih aku terpaksa cabut soalnya ada checksound angsa dan serigala di score.
tapi dateng-dateng jam 2 teng baru ada mas aji. terus datanglah kang jack. dan kak ansa dkk. (duh lupa siapa aja) dengan NAIK TAKSI hihi.
akhirnya kita masuk ke score!
tapi masih gelap gitu belum disetting.
pas udah dinyalain lampunya dan mulai setting panggung aku udah amazed aja.
gila ni tempat HITAM sekali. lantai hitam. dinding hitam. kursi hitam. langit-langit hitam. panggung hitam. haha (maafkan ke-UDIK-an ku gak pernah ke tempat kayak score! sebelumnya)

yaa checksound lah kami. seperti biasa saja.
dapet run down. eh mainnya kok malem amat jam 22.55 sampai 23.25. udah deg2an aja takut gak boleh maen.. huhu.
tapi ahirnya boleh dong. yiippiee!

sore-sore mengGJ. translate profil angsa dan serigala buat dikirim ke mr. USA (Ya Allah mudahkanlah jalan angsa dan serigala untuk jalan2 di minnesota amiin!) translate-annya agak aneh sih. yaudah lah. nilai writing toeflku kan emang terbukti gak bagus-bagus amat hehe.

ahirnya jam 9 mulai siap-siap. dandan dikit dan akhirnya bersama mas medi dan mbak zisa berangkat ke SCORE! dresscodenya putih. lucu deh malem2 pake putih-putih. kayak hantu hahaha. aku baju dapet maling ke mamah. lucu bajunya kayak jubah gitu haha. tambah hantu deh, hantu kecil :p
sampai di SCORE! ketemu ama kak poppy dan kak parto.hoho.
dan yang lain pun mulai berdatangan. sambil nungguin kak intan dan semuanya datang. kita pun foto-foto di depan SCORE! senaang.
akhirnya masuk deh.
karena yang mau dapet pass ampe 27 orang lebih jadi kita baris dengan rapi.
ke 15 player juga baris, aku ikut baris deh. dengan rapi haha. dicap satu-satu.
pas giliran aku :

"bener gak pemain? bener udah 17?"
ah sial. aku udah mau 18 niih! :p

akhirnya masuk.
oh ow. gelap. sepi. acaranya belon mulai. padahal itu udah jam 10 lebih. alias NGARET.
yaudah deh. kita semua ngambil tempat di pojokan ada sofa-sofa gitu.
aku mengamati keadaan sekitar. wow gelap banget haha. remang-remang syalala.

inilah pengalaman pertamaku masuk tempat seperti SCORE!

hehe.
udik yah?

yaa menunggu deh udah ngantuuuk banget. ama kak poppy dan kak ansa udah aja itu mah tepar-tepar di sofa. akhirnya acara mulai, ternyata acaranya fakultas peternakan UNPAD.
band pertama band kampus. yaya no comment.
terus ada fashion dance. gila gila gila. musiknya menghentakkan ruangan. ngebuat serangan jantung dan pingsan. menghantam jiwa. menusuk sukma (lebay)
terus ada joni lightning. vokalisnya enak.
terus ada fiona. hmhm gitu deh.

dan akhirnya tibalah waktu kita. finally. jam menunjukkan setengah 1 kurang. whoops. sekarang udah tanggal 28, bukan tanggal 27 lagi!

dan akhirnya main deh untungnya.
maennya sih cukup enjoy. cuman dari panggung gak keliatan apa-apa ke bawah.
lampunya mejikuhibiniu gitu haha. jadi kayak ilusi-ilusi gitu, udah ngantuk sih. haha.

lagu pertama bersamaku. terus manusia. terus unreachable hehe.terus sesaat yang akan sirna. terus detik dan waktu.
yeah.

asyik :)
tapi pegel, ngantuk, batuk-batuk, pegel kaki.

langsung pulang deh. tapi perutku ngejerit. aku, mbak zisa, dan mas medi merasa SANGATLAH LAPAR.
niatnya mau ke mcd setiabudi mau drive-tru.
tapi taunya yang di premier bukaa hehe.
tapi ak udah copot sepatu dan kakiku tuh udah gak kuasa (weits) untuk masuk lagi ke high heels mama itu.

jadilah...
turun ke mcd premier nyeker haha. kayak cinderella gimana gituu. sepatunya ngilang hehe.

pesan cheeseburger, mcchicken, fillet-ofish, panas, french fries large, milo, ama icy blue float (haha ini mas medi yang pesen-bagiku ini terlihat seperti spirtus haha)
dan makaan deh dengan bahagia di jalan pulang. burgernya masi anget. enaaak.

sampai di rumah. jelaslah semuanya udah tidur.
mama gak buka2 pintu hueee. udah pesimis aja takut tidur di kebun. untung mama bukain pintu akhirnya hehehee.thanks mam.

udah gitu. apalagi? ngapus make up. dan tidur!!!

hehe.
great day, uh?
love you anak-anak sef3 2009 dan angsadanserigala :D
love you so much much my family and my best :D

Liebe ♥

mencapai bintangku ♥

2009-05-30T17:48:00.001+07:00

...

kulihat, malam terbentang..
berhiaskan, sribu bintang..

diantara bintang yang bersinar
satu pasti milikku,
walau jauh dan tak terbatas,
pastilah diriku mampu

doa dan restumu bagaikan seribu sayap
menghantarku membumbungku,
terbang melayang,
meraih bintang yang bersinar di langit tinggi,
mencapai bintangku

pasti akan kugapai, cita-cita

kerlipmu mengajakku terbang
menggapai, cita masa depan..

...

lagu judulnya mencapai bintangku, aku lupa siapa yang nyanyi. dulu aku nyanyiin lagu ini pas kelas 1 SMA. buat nampil sama ASC. waktu itu emang belum kerasa maknanya. tapi sekarang, saat gak sengaja shuffle winampku mainin lagu ini.

aku merasa yakin, pasti aku juga bisa menggapai cita-cita :)

ayo ah, semaangat meraih cita-cita!

*Liebe

little star :)

2009-05-30T17:39:00.002+07:00

everyone around me is so shining and sparkling.

..

i started everything with baby steps.

i don't have any connection to the music world at all. my family just love music and they want their children to learn music. so i started it with piano and then violin, vocal, guitar. and everything. i learnt everything slowly and slowly. and suddenly this world has became a big part of my life. i really love music.
loads of things happened. loads of far more greater people than me that i met. loads of things that i experienced. happy. sad. depressed. excited. overjoyed. misery. jealousy.

but i keep on playing my little violin more and more.

i'm not a brilliant classical player. well, i never learnt classical violin properly, though.
i'm not having a great classical recital at erasmus huis or ccf or some place else.
i'm not performing in a magnificent big show in national or international scope like others.
i'm independent. i don't have great connection in music. i always look for my job and performance by myself. and i never want to miss even just one performance, every performance is meaningful for me. no matter how small the scope is.
i don't play on tv and be recognized by the whole country or being a member of a major label band. in fact i'm just someone that you might recognized from stage to stage, as a indie player.
people don't say that i'm a musical genius in a youth age, i have lack knowledge of music theory etc. in fact i've only finished my 5th grade of classical examination.
i'm not like my extravagant juniors. with lots of talent, lots of instrument that they masterized, lots of music style that they play, and good family reputation in music.

...

BUT i'm sure.
i'm also a little star shining out there.

i'm shining. maybe i'm not that big and bright. but slowly but sure i know that this little star will give you all the light and music that will make you all smile and feeling cheery and warm ;)
i will keep striving to be a big star.
although now i'm just an ordinary girl, i iwll evolve someday into a big and respectable star ;)

....

thank you for Dear GOD, i'm thankful of what you always gave to me.
thank you for my FAMILY; mom, papa, mbak al, mbak zisa, ilham, de lilly and others. for supporting me this whole 17 years.and teach me how to deal with my inferiority syndrome.
thank you for MR.TIGGER and my other best friend; who always love me just the way i am. and be proud of me just the way i am.
thank you for my music teachers MAS AMMY, PAK OERIP, OM ABI, and PAK KHRISNAN; without your presence i will not be able to express myself through music like i'm doing now.
...
thank you for my dear band, ANGSA&SERIGALA;kak aji,teh mega,kak danny, kak ardit, kang jack, kak angkuy,kak poppy,kak irwan,kak hamdan, i never felt this sense of togetherness before. this is really the place that i learn to play music with heart :)
thank you for my dear KLABKLASIK STRING TRIO; mbak zisa, mas syarif. what an experiece that i gained from this trio. especially when you all succeed to push me to sing :)
thank you for my TWILITE YOUTH ORCHESTRA; especially putri, astari, sara, bayu. this is eventually the place that i learn classical music properly and have fun too! :)
thank you ITB STUDENT ORCHESTRA; yaay finally i'll be a legal member of ISO :)

and well well. thank you all :)

...

i might be playing simple song with simple appearence.
but i have to be proud of what am i.
and i'll keep struggling to shine even more than before :)
and play a music that can amuse others :)
just pray for me, OK?

*Liebe!